( symbolism )

i feel so ... *tries to find a word in the thesaurus*
forlorn? no, no... trapped? no, no. i dont know

Imagine a lot of heavy rocks just land right into you at once, how would you feel. Thats what exactly i am feeling now.

imagine, everyday, going to an empty shell called home. The people you have lived for 15 yrs isn't talking to you. The only form of life is a square box and a rectangle device. imagine going to school, saying all the negative things about you. yes, i admit, i have alot alot alot of flaws. People change for the better, i change for the worse. i admire the people who come up to me and tell me my flaws, at least i know. i just dont like it when people say things behind me, like, walao, she is sucha flirt, i know what you are saying. like hello, gossip less obviously, dont stare at me. I am referring to my classmate.
I've found back my feelings for nball. I dont know how, i guess yumi did a great part. And what ss told me. And, some things just

peedouble? roller coaster.

And i was had a tiff a jeffrey ):

为什么我就不能有多一点优点

I AM A HUMAN I DO HAVE FEELINGS. I AM NOT A WOOD, A NON-LIVING THING.
My sixth sense is berry berry accurate i know how are you feeling/thinking.

缘分。 可能我就是少了这个。
天意-可能我不是试合有好朋友。

My whole set of comp is back[:

Something, serious, happened, yesterday night.
I really meant, something serious D:

Well, it was still un-settled till now. But, i put it aside during school hours.

Respond = Misunderstanding, nothing else.

开心也是一天
不开心也是一天
不如天天开开心心！:DDD

我问心无愧 [:

I AM FREAKING PISSEDDDD OFF TODAY..

#1
147 DROVE AT SUCHA SLOW PACE AND WE HAD TO RUN TO THE TRACK. I WAS HEAVING BEFORE I RUN 2.4, SUPER PISSED. IT WAS LIKE DRIVING AT 20KM/H.

#2.
MR CHUA CAUGHT ME EATING SWEET IN CLASS.
Like wth, his lesson is so plain boring you can't blame me right. and its like the last period of the day. i was very obvious la, i only chewed once. WTH. then he said im gg t send you t dention if he ever catch me again. CHICKEN LA.
Then he walked to me, then my bag was on the chair beside me. Because me and pw exchange bag today what then his bag quite small. then mr chua open my bag and took out the stuff i threw inside. WHAT THE HELL? Are teachers supposed to do that? what if there was some private stuff inside? And he still confidently reprimanded me. Then i was like, what the hell, PRIVACY LA. Then he continue scolding wth.
Then he asked us to do some maths qns, then i dont know how to do, cause i like, forgot. then he said, you must do this kinda qns within 10mins, its a very simple question.
Then i was damn pekcek, i was like "SHUT UP LA."

then yadagablah.

Went for training, got a lil better because of the song singing and laaa.
On court, wanted to get rid of my mental barrier. i was like, i was get rid of it, i must defend THAT ball. then i PHEWWWWW. BOOM! i banged into the netball pole, my ankle banged into it and i lost balance and i fall. its effing bloody damn painful okay. i am not kicking a big fuss.
YOU GO BANG YOUR ANKLE AGAINST THE METAL POLE AND SEE WHATS THE FEELING BEFORE YOU TALK TO ME.
Zzz. continued playing and its effing pain now whattheheck. i am a whineyy bubu whateverrrr.

#3
Bought something huge home, then my mother was like " where you gg to put it? no space la"
my brother add oil to fire" bring out la, no space la"
GOT ASK YOUR EFFING OPINION IS IT
Then i squeezed the huge thing inside. Then yeah quarrelled, wth
Why can't she be, "oh dear, how can we put this?"
WHY MUST SHE BE LIKE
"WHAT THE FISH? NO SPACE LA, YOU SELFISH PIG"
CHICKENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN LA.
Then i was like, eating my dinner. She was SIGHING AND GRUMBLING AND PICKING A FIGHT.
CHICKEN LA. I CAN'T EVEN HAVE A PROPER MEAL IS IT.
She was like "study what shit one, wear white for training very hard to wash and so many things t wash"
THEN THROW INSIDE THE WASHING MACHINE LA. CHICKEN. CAN'T YOU BE A MORE CARING MUM. CHICKEN LA.
Then i quarrel w her.

OIL OIL OIL ADDITIONAL OIL
"NOT HAPPY DONT COME HOME LA, GO OUT LA"
FUCK YOU LA, I TOMORROW DONT COME HOME THEN YOU KNOW.

WHAT A FUCKING NICE HOME I HAVE EH __
ya la i fucking cal la. go away la you no like me

Racial harmony costume[:
We were amazed by the lappy top :D
I AM BECOMING MORE AND MORE UGLY.
GEEZZ. YUCKS.
Not that i am very pretty but, YOU SEE HOW WAS I LAST TIME!

JUNE HOLIDAYS= VERY VERY LONG SLEEEP= no panda eyes = LIKE THIS

SEMESTER 1!!! Sufficient sleeping time, lesser workload. NOT THAT BAD RIGHT.



YOU SEEE NOWWWW. YOU COMPAREEEE
I slept 8hours the previous night and still can't cure my panda eyes eh. so bloody big D:
yesterday was the best eyes since june hols. so yeah, you can imagine me in sch w/o eyes when i didn't have enough sleep.



And, i only have limited pictures sighhh. sad life ]:

Yesterday+ today = shoick.

I haven't been touching my books when i reach home and its the first time since the school terms start! okay, i am super elated[: FINALLLYYY A BREAKKK CAN? [:

Wore ethnic costume t school lol. Yumi the loser ps-ed me before assembly lol. ah anw, I LOOK CUTE ALRIGHT[: Only jeffrey the idiot says its funny.

Yeah so skipped all the lessons[: i am happy bout the chem period. teeheeeheee[: dont need t see his face.

Its going t be a happy sunday[:

Yesterday's incident left me traumatised. NOT ONLY VERONICA BUT ME ALSO YOU KNOW ):

Today is an emotional day[:

Happy+sad+tired+glad+afraid+restless.

Peedoubleu's phone got confiscated. !#$%&^*($#!
D:
I emo-ed for the whole english period zzz. His phone confiscated = he [: , i ]:

Anyway, went to jp w. Adeline, qianhui, veronica yiqing, yumi and ME! Ate at pizza hut[: I was quite pek cek w the food and service. We had to sit at non- air conditioned place and we didn't had our plates, like hello?! and my soup was super diluted and my rice was as hard as rock. Zzzz. Bad experience ]:

Went to choose yiqing's bday present. I saw a hawttt pink ear piece okay. uber nice and its cheap cheap cheap. But nah, its too cliche. Walk walk walk and bought a malay PINK costume for tomorrow[: haha so huiping right [:

Then went home....

*yumi calls me*
yumi: eh did you saw the guy behind us just now?
huiping: huh no, why eh?
yumi: i think its raymond

*looks arnd and saw one familar figure*

huiping: okay i go ask him.

*walks in front of raymond and stare at him*
*walks one big circle still staring*

huiping: eh do i know you?
raymond: i dont think so
huiping: are you sure or not? you not raymond?
raymond: yeah you see wrong person la
huiping: lol okay luh, bye *walk away*
raymond: lol okay la! joking one la. eh i still owe you lollipop eh
huiping: OH YA HOR. nah go there buy!
raymond: lucky i just bought a packet of lollipop *gives me one*

YAY :D
then bus-ed home

Veronica kept repeating " you imagin you imagin! you just fall flat on the ground. YOU IMAGIN!"

whats wrong

Has got to be less emotional[:

Sicko training+ feel super bad+ over tired + muscle aches = the usual me ]:

i find this very funny:
(ytd night; something like that)

eldin: hey.. you know ah... your present
huiping: *thinks* huh what present? OH YA MY BDAY PRESENT, AHEM WHERE IS IT?
eldin: shit, shouldn't have reminded you, anyway! do you want $20 taka shopping vocher?
huiping: i've tons of it at home.. LOL.
eldin: walao! sian leh, i still thought very hard to get one D:
*changes my nick to* note to self: eldin owes me bday present[:

THIS WEEK IS BERRY BERRY SHIOCK[: ONLY GOT 1 TEST[: BUT I HAVENT STUDY :D
oh shit. i have to do my bio tys and study history zzz.
Tomorrow is going to be a happy day w my girlfriends![:

Hello. i have not study for history test and i got netball tomorrow :D
Veronica is a very prof joker.

SHE CALLS THE POLICE WHEN SHE LOSE HER WALLET O.O like HUH?!?!?!

hp: hey where are you now
yumi: i gg home now, nica still at vivo, with the police,
hp: *WIDENS MY EYES SUPER BIG, I THOT WHAT HAPPEN SIA*
yumi: ... she lost her wallet
hp: *stunned* okay, i rush down now, bye.

*Veronica looks relatively happy* joking w the police happily, and the police is laughing at her. LOL LAAAA. OMG.

veronica rings the police t inform him that she found her wallet
veronica: hey but my cash and cashcard are missing! can i trace it?
*skip skip skip*
police: but it will be a very long process
veron: long for you right?
police: no, for the investigator
veron: then thats too bad for him.

*laughs like a mad retard*

OHMYGOSH. I HAVE RETARDED FRIENDS. AND TODAY MORNING WE WERE LIKE TALKING ABOUT THE STORY AND MANY HILARIOUS PARTS. *laughs till tummy ache*

Anw i caught red cliff today. its a loser show, it ends at the most exciting part!!! what the hellxzxz. nehmind, but i know the ending liaoxzxz. *twist*

Went to buy josephine's present.
WALAO I CHOOSE FOR HALF AN HOUR LO );
AND I WRAP FOR 20MINS
AND I FIND THE PLASTIC BAG FOR 20MINS!
Zzz. I AM GOING TO BE BERRY SAD IF SHE DOESN'T LIKE ITTTTT ]:

And my blood just boils in sight of mr ho
ZZZZzz.
And i wasn't paying attn the whole of today except for maths[: Jeffrey keeps me awake during lessons. Clever teachers should know what to do[: damn freaking tired todayxzx. oh ya speaking of jeffrey. The first thing he saw me in the morning... he was like
OHMYGOSH! WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU! YOUR EYE BAGS ARE SUPER SUPER SUPER DEEEP! I DRAW FOR YOU TO SEE. OMG!

Weeetarded :D

@.@

i am practically feeling like that la. Mugged a bit of bio, a bit of history.
I feeeeel sick D:
my mother warned me specifically not to be sick because she predicts i'll be. walao ehxzxz. i berry berry strong one okay, dont play play [:

Dinner w family yesterday was alright. The restaurant's food is nice[: And i got bullied by my cute niece. Zzz. lol. anw, shes cute la. but my photo w her got screwed, and im pretty sad. i dont have adobe photshop now. whatever la. what can i do w this sucker comp D:

I wna read my msn history D:
i want my photo album
i want all my hundreds of songs.
i want my photoshop
i want my itunes. i am a wmp v11 noob D:

okay la fine, i am very old oldie auntie can. i dont know how t use the new version.


ah i go sleep alr la buaixz buaixzxz

I dislike trainings, seriously.
I dont care.
i know yumi the captain and veronica the vice captain read this and they are my close friends. but i am just tired of pretending. i once liked netball. but somehow or rather, i dislike it now. And i am forcing myself to like netball. it shows on court, i arent putting effort. i know, stop it.

Family dinner: Uploaded for the sake of KL.
I got a picture w bernelle la. but kl the poor photographer ruin my pic D: damn fugly D:




MY VERY COOL TUTOR! :DDD

Hello [:

Morning, quarrelled w my mum. She was like scolding me how busy i am.
mum: ni xiang lei huai ni zi ji uh? [ you wna tire yourself out is it]
me: you think i want one is it? *slams the door*

Hmmm, since school reopens, i've never had time on my own and i am sure she saw that. lol.

dreamily went through the whole day D:

And i found a shortcut to kallang!!!! super happy w myself :D *beams*
i only need 30mins to travel there okay :D but the kiasu yumi wants to meet at 630 at vivo D:
THE KIAAAAASU YUMI. AHEM.

TODAY IS A HAPPY DAY :D
HAPPY 3:3 [:

Pesta sukannnnnn [:

Today is a bad day D:
Didn't had mood in the morning and i was pissed w pw.

Went back to class, jeffrey thought something happened t me haha.
Took back my chemistry test and i just passed. what the diao.
I am very pissed off w mr ho. GO !#$%%&%$ I like to scold teacher ah, can't is it. You see me scolding ms lee? no. I hope he reads this okay, whatever, you are sucha sucker tcher who only knows how to give a damn face. you think you fierce i scared ahh. i sho scared worhxzxz.

I dont understand why pw had to make me upset twice in a day. I know you will see this but whateverrr. you know i am damn busy today, why can't you help me plan for tomorrow and make your own decisions? why can't you show better form of appreciation when i took time off my busy curfew to do this stuff.

Huiping is super busy and stressed D:
I haven't mug for amaths test. i mugged circles ytd and today mr chua bloody told me its not coming out.
i haven't study for poa test on friday.

I am totally booked on saturday.
Pesta sukan in the morning, need to rush to tuition, then rush back home for family dinner till damn late. and i had to study for 3 tests and do ALL my homework in a day? i seriously dont need to sleep i tell you. Tues is cip, thurs is celebrate yq bday.

what kinda damn days am i leading?
I can just give up and don't study but i can't.
i still have my 65%.

I STILL HAVE T MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY.
WHAT THE FUCK
YES FUCK.
I dont mind crossing the road and getting bang by car. i will be smiling [:

Got back my emaths test paper! And i really think i need to go and bang th wall. AHEM [: Mr chua gives out the paper from lowest t highest, then i was like thinking, aiyah, cfm very soon will be my name. then i was like waiting, uhm for quite long. then the score is alr A. then still haven't call my name. then i was like, IMPOSSIBLE OKAY. lol. so yeah. got 20/25 [: And as you knowww, i didn't had the confidence to finish the paper, if i had the confidence t do finish the paper i would have scored 23/25. Zzz. [:
So yeahh, ppl were like cursing me. walao! you cry for nothing sia lol.

AND MR HO IS DAMN KB. Tmd zzz.

AND SOH YUMI
STOP BEING A EMO ELMO THESE DAYS. i shall be nice and give you a big smile
:D

My eyes are stinging pain
Its bothering me hell loads.
I am very bothered.
The more i cry, the lesser my passion, the lesser i want t try.
Same goes t everything..

I still remember there was a time where i nearly quit netball. i was only one step away from quitting. I've totally convinced myself that netball is nothing. But nowhere came the strength for me to continue and amazingly, i've found myself going up by leaps and bounds. Laughing at my hilarious sec 1 style [: To be standing as a sec3, i have tons and tons of never-give-up story, choose one chapter, i can tell you for a day. Because i am huiping [:

i've never enjoyed C div o7. Not much of b div 08, other than ppl telling me, saying i always try hard. But honestly, i dont. Half of the time i wanted t give up.
B div 09, its a brand, fresh start. I want it to be memorable[:

Today is the first time i slack after netball laaxzxz. *feels super guilty* I've totally no mood for work. I am speechless.

Getting back emaths test paper tmllll.
65 % ... *kicks t mars*
I have totally no confidence in achieving the result. I am prepared t give up my freedom and fight w my parents. i dont give a damn.
I only know i will effing hate mr chua ym.
I can't imagin a teacher purposely screwing up a student's life. Fine, im oh so immature.

OKAYYY COMPLAIN TIME
YOU KNOW I AM HAVING STOMACHACHE FOR HELL DAMN LONG D:
AND TODAY WE RAN 4KM. I WAS LIKE PAIN LIKE DONT KNOW WHAT. WALAOAXZXZ.
My friends thinks i have worm inside my stomach.
okay, i should see a doctor when i have time. its getting worse D:

AND I EFFING HATE MR HO.
HE CAN GO FLY TO PLUTO AND DIE THERE I TELL YOU
HE IS SUPER QIAN DA ZZXZXZ.
whats w the kp face.
He asked us to write this feedback form about..
list 3 things that i learn from him & 2 things i wna know and 1 qns.
i left the first two parts blank and last part i write
" can you stop giving us that face?"
YOU WANT RESPECT UH? EARN FROM ME LA. TMD.
You totally screw my chem test you know that? you know how important it is to me? you will screw my life you ARSEEE.

Helloxzxz. my old pc cocked up D: the internet can't connect laaaa D:
AND
I
DONT
LIKE
THIS
COMPUTER ZZZ.

#1.
it has the oldest version of msn messenger i think?
my message comes out like this

huiping says :
hello
huiping says:
wello
huiping says: ji dan

& i like my msg to come out like THIS
huiping says:
hello.
this is cool man
haha

Andd.. my wireless keyboard is gone D:
my mozilla is gone D:
all my beautiful pictures are gone D:
all my favourite songs are GONE!

*draws circle on the ground*
i've no mood t say anything D:

Carmen is not just singapore flyer. She got qian li yan also!


iamcarmen.hello says:
you knw, i doing my chemistry paper halfway, thn i stone, looking out of the window
thn u walk away liao
thn after ZOOOOOM
some guy run damn fast
thn grab u from behind
thn u lie on his shoulder awhile
haha


HAHAHAHA YA. I HAVE A BERRY BERRY NICE BOYF :DDD who zooms t find me when i cry :D

Helloxzxz. I should be mugging for my POA and Cheena test and chem test! D: i want t be a procrastinator i dont careee worhxzx.

Huiping is very loserish, okay stop it. I dont like failures. i like hardwork- (then) success. I dont like hardwork-(then)- failure-(then) success. Nonononono D:
Junyang called me just now and told me not to disappoint him because he is very angry w veronica >.< for the mole concept thingggg. zzz . okay okay, i shall stay composed like todayyy. But i am like panicking Zzz. chem chem chemm chemm lehxzxz! Huiping you rock at mole concept alright, dont worry, apply what jy taught you D: ~!!!!!!!

I think the people arnd me are very cute :D

*Jeremy talks t me about something serious *
Jeremy: eh you come come
Huiping: oh oh okay. *moves closer*
Jeremy: i give you a happy slap! *piak softly*
huiping: =.= woah thanks. *smack him hard*

I AM HAPPY ALR -.-

A few days ago at peedoubleu house.

huiping: heyy! i like that magee mee! damn nice one
powei: *looks arnd sneakily*
( THERE IS NOBODY IN THE KITCHEN -.- only living room)
powei: *hides somewhere* shhh! dont tell anyone

Just now
powei: heyhey! YOUR MAGEE MEE STILL HAVEN'T BEEN DISCOVERED! :DD

HAHAHAHAHA. AHEM =/

i AM OKAYY NOWWWW :DDDD
I AM HAPPY ALR LAAAAAA :D
Thanks for the people that caredddd [:
i didn't know that you actually cared =/ After all th dao-ing and weirdness =X
& & you you you! for running arnd one big round t find me x33 :D

Yesssss, nobody is viewing my blog because i am a damn boring person w no lifeeeeeee. lol.

Wednesday
Woke up, prepared as usual. & i got a big shocked of my life uh. Peedoubleu woke up super early and appeared under my block! O.O and he fetched me to school luh. Like, out of randomness. I was super surprised :DD
Training sucked =/
Went home, tried t do a bit of work but was godamn tired and went t sleep.

today!
Woke up early t do work and haha, peedoubleu fetched me t school again :D Did emaths test. I was like super disappointed D: the questions we had was like so easy, then during th test mr chua gave us super super ultra difficult question. like wth?
Huiping was super sad because she tried so hard yet she had to fail. & she hates mr chua because she thinks mr chua purposely don't let her achieve her 65%. And partially because i am godamn stressed D: rawrrr boo, whatever.

O lvl chinese oral was hairpee hairpee! Remained super composed :D adeline they all were like panicking LOL. but i left the teacher said, bu cuo :DDD

wo hen lei le D:

If only i could read people's heart.

Talked to yumi alot during biology lesson. Its like the energy peak point of today. Secrets secrets ; jokes jokes [: Zzzz. Total blanked for the whole day okayyy lol.

Huiping isn't working hard enough t attain her contract result. But huiping is freaking tired, she needs energy booster everyday. jiu ming uh D:

& i finally found something to own jeffrey's ass. HOORAY! :D

jeffrey: *says in a very zai tone* when i was in pri sch my chinese always get 80+ one
huiping: when i was in pri sch my chinese nvr get lower than 90. Once my higher chinese got half more mark to full marks.
jeffrey: YOU FREAKING GAY MAN. What happen to you now?
huiping: god knows. lol.
jeffrey: karma
huiping: yeah, i'll own your ass some day. you watch out :D

You see red and green.
i see blue, clear blue [:
Lets see whose got th last laugh.

Alright, pictures of jack's wedding!

I use my phone to take pic on the developed photograph. so yeah, poor quality.


The sad faces were replaced as fake happy faces

Today is screweddd
5 july is crossed out from my happy calender.

you don't even tell me a single shit.

oh. so i guess i am changing? but since when did you notice about me?
Actually, i am not that important.


& ytd, even you don't believe me, who would?
I totally lost my point of fighting so hard for that you know.
I don't have to do that you know.

{edited}
UGH, *whines*
I am super shagged alrightt. Huiping didn't use computer for two days, sitting diagonally from her computer doing her work, thats totally not huiping and impossible manxzxz. but i did it okay.. shocked? astonished? unbelievable?

I kept editing this post lol. i've so many things t say because i havent been blogging about my colourful life.

mr chua: *says something insulting, something like* i feel cheated la, i dont see any improvement in you, our contract?

huiping: i've been working hard okay, its just that you didn't see. i even forsake my computer.

Adeline: ARE YOU SURE?!?!?! *super shocked face*

mr chua: you seee! even your friends doesn't trust you, how do you want me to?

FINE FINE WHATEVER OKAY? You are so gona regret.

okay, school sucked as much as that bitch zzz. okay just kidding, it sucked much more than thatttt zzz.

Lets see, what i have for school next week, 4 days of school
English test
Higher chinese test
POA test
Chemistry test
Emaths test
O lvls chinese oral.

One week no more than 3 tests? bull shit i tell you. I've never ever so detest this school's policy before. oh rightt, all those policies are just for showw. does teacher give a shit? no luh. you think 3 days of hols very big deal is it, can study so many things.

And i can't stand my chemistry tcher. He was so damn slow, teaching us about titration and ms huang alr gone through. then huilong, yumi, yiqing, adeline and i can't stand it. And adeline and i were one step faster than him. then he kp-ed us. then i was like, blackk face, i effing hate him okay. if he really wn me t respect him for the next 8 weeks, im sorry uh, he have to earn it from me.

And my chines tchers is damn biased against netballers. chickenn ni neh neh si dong dong si xi xi si nan nan si bei bei. JI DAN.

School teachers are so screwed up man. The only teacher that i respect is ms lee qian yi can :D but she is leaving. screwww it. whatever

BOOOO, guess whats greater.
I've tuition on sat, my brother's bday party on Sunday. Andd you know what? my mother will drag me into preparation on sat. that means two days gone. buaixxzxz D:

Miraculously, i didn't break down [: huiping is strongggerrr! [:

Netball is [: Everything is gg very smoothly [: i hope there isn't going to be any bumps D: i can't afford to have one D:

Veronica nearly wanted to kill me :D Cause i was defending veronicaaa, haha, as usual. And i had the adrenaline rush :D haha. then knock her several times, PAISEI LA :D but got once, funniest. i was like, positioned nicely. Then she run out, ofcourse i won't follow right lol, then she trip over my leg and fall. HAHAHAHHAA I WAS STUNNED LA LOL.

I am going to prove you wrong ]:

why does it always have the same ending and result.
i am utterly speechless and disappointed.
why is it always something that bothers me, or rather us so much.
screw you.
if i could rewind th time i wouldn't do that. i totally screw that> up.