I hate not doing productive study.
Sometimes i just wish i was born w high lvl of perserverance like _ and high lvl of concentration like _.
boooooo.
I've like, stuck with my computer for 3 hours, urghxxz.
Poa is driving me crazyyyyyyyy. W those 20+ marks question ):


I thought i saw you flinch when....
Or maybe i was just too sensitive mmm.

I miss going out after school ):
Sigh, spent loads of time fixing the codes, guess i'll just leave it like this.

Well, read this from facebook, a girl called Renee Paterson, it actually makes sense. Abit lengthy, but definitely worth the time.

"First, Id like to say hi. I am a size 7, dont think im fat, but have a few larger friends who seem to think being skinny is sooo much better.
I used to walk down the street and get barked at, cat called, yelled at, etc. Most of my friends would say i wish that would happen.
You dont. I have been used by guys so many times it is pathetic. Guys see your body, and you feel like a piece of meat waiting to be eaten. your used, and lied to, and abused, etc all because they like the way you look. Guys will do this because you know, your walking down the street, all his friends are jealous for having the hottest girlfriend. No one knows you. the see the outside.Basically what i am trying to say, is being skinny is not all it is cracked up to be either. Being bigger you may not have guys cat call you, or stare at you, etc. But the chances of you being used are less, and chances of someone taking the time to get to know you before deciding they want to sleep with you are better.
I was once anorexoic. I have no idea how bigger people feel. But, being skinny is as bad as being bigger. So what if you have the "perfect body". there is no perfect body. Your body can be a 10 plus, but you can be the biggest bitch on the planet, and people are your friends because you look nice, not because they actually like you for you.
so, to all those bigger girls - be proud of who you are. bigger or not, your beautiful. If you slump around all day whining to yourself that your fat, others will notice. You need to be confident, and remember that everyone is special. I personally used to wish i was bigger because i mean, i was pregnant walking down the street getting cat calls. I can be drunk, or dying. They see my body.
Guys who ignore because of your body size are not worth it, and never were, so dont waste your time. Make good friends, real ones, and accept who you are. Because in the end, you os the only person you will ever be."

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My mum is so cute for the first time, hahaha, opps.

Cause i'm like in my room, then shes in the kitchen. Then she called my phone to tell me something, HAHAHA.

I love noon naps after school! (L)
Gah, i'm getting fattttttt.

And niger the toasted bread is so irritating today. Keep calling me toaster during Maths that i nearly throw my shoe at him (!!!)

Woo, don't be so sensitive to me, its scary.

It amuses me why some people can talk without using their brains.
"walao, this is so unfair. Its like i sell my stock at 80cents now shoot to $80" lzy.
F you man, since when did you sold your stock -.-
My biggest mistake is to have...... you man.
Use your brain to talk man.
Okay, i guess only those who know me since Sec one knows what i'm talking bout.

Was just, bored.
Today is a boring day. Wah shiat, got jeffrey's influence.



Today is an interesting day! :D
Got surprise smses, hmm, hmmm.
My phone got jammed (!!!)
I still haven't receive the sms cb sent few days ago, -.- retarded.

I slacked my whole wonderful weekend away! Like seriously.


What if.........
What if........
If only........
It could have beeen.....




I feel like i'm playing mind games w myself, spastic.

When you put in too much, in the past.

I'm so gladddd :D
I like it when people say, "hey i only tell you uhhh" heeheeeheee. opps =/

Ran 5km, drills and courtwork today. Burnt fats like crazy.
BUT I GAINED 2KG MAN, WTH. I wna go on diet, heeehee i'm kidding. Food is my life (L)
TRAINING IS NOT FUNNY WITHOUT LIJIE ):
Ohmygod that stupid, girl, you suck.

Gosh i found a new food haven in singapore :DDD
heeeeeheeeeee.

HAHAHA CB IS MY NEW ENTERTAINMENT MAN.

cb: whenever i sms someone, then my friends will think shes my girlf.

me: HAHA, then i everytime sms 3 ppl means i got 3 boyf!? HAHAHA. i one leg step 3 boat HAHA

cb:
wah
u so heavy that u need 3 boats to move u around
one boat only you will sink


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Do you still remember what happened at 3.33pm last year's today? ha. Times flies.

It brings me back so much of memory just looking at you.
Well, it has been half a yr.





On a happier note,


4c1 won the overall upper sec championships for the sports carnival! :D Kudos.


Who says 4c1 are nerds who only know how to mug. Ownxzxz you flat. hahah, when it was announced, we still aren't sure what prize it was. Then we just clap, then after we got the trouphy then we were like, "OHMYGODNESS OVERALL CHAMPS MAN!!!!" *starts to be elated*





Pizza hut w clique minus adeline after carnivallll.
( EH I TODAY GOOD HAIR DAY HEEHEE :D )
Supposed t have class outing, but aiyah, screwed.
WASTE MY SMS LEH, STUPID JEFFREY. BOX YOU.





Okay, i shall go offline. Cb scold me fake cause i online, tsk, box you also.

Bad day.

Shucks. My head is splitting from the 1 hour nap i had.
I hope tomorrow will be better.

Happy birthday CS (:

when you remembered last yr's today

Maybe i shouldn't expose you to the outside world?
Maybe i was wrong?

But its the fact, its the cruel fact that the world is like THIS.
I'm sorry bestfriend, but this is what you've to go through.

Humans being humans. tsk.

Maybe i should permanently switch to wordpress.
Amaths retest tmr, jiayou (:

As the day approaches...

And i miss that unknown number that used to call me everyday


HAHA, wth, clementi town sounds very lan meh -.-

This is the type of typical conversation my other school friends' and i always had. I think more than 3 this year already.

Huiping:
eh what you say i noob! whats your school's cut off point?!

___:
I forgot. Damn low lah, but better than your school.

Huiping:
tsk, really meh, then how much you got?

___:
220+
you?

Huiping:
240 :D

___:
EH I THOUGHT YOURS NEIGHBOURHOOD SCHOOL!?

hahahah. Just owned cb luh. hahaha :D

Hanging on, ):

SRC! :D

I'm shagged.

I miss you, sharon ):
I think i'm emotionally unstable. I was smsing my friend bout this, and i suddenly cried on the bus.

Love yesterday's game :)

Reached home at arnd 10 ytd? Then quarrelled w mum bout continuing netball.
Whats wrong w loving netball?
Whats wrong w doing something i like?
Why can't they not be stuck in the 60s where kids go home after school, play marble?
I thought parent should support their children as long as its not something bad. But why my parents also does the opposite? Its not as tho i'm neglecting my studies. I'm already eff ing trying very hard to adjust my life.
Why is it that they can't understand and have to give me shit and pressure every now and then, WHY?
Because you all have never wanted something in life.
Because you all have also live for the sake of living.
Whats wrong w me wanting t play netball.
its just playing netball my dear, i won't fail my Os.

I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry for not performing today. I know i suck like shit today.
I'm so sorry for having the black face on court today, because i'm disappointed and helpless.
i'm sorry lijie ):

I'm sorry to those i hadn't been talking to for long.
I feels so sucky being stuck at home when you have plans ):

Perhaps i'm just tired.

HI EVERYONE. I'M BLOOP BLOOP THE FISH!
I spend 30mins uploading the photos (S) 50 okay (!!)
Then when i publish my entire blog can't be viewed ):
I think its Qh's phone lah. Ferari too fast my blog can't load.
So yeah. VISIT MY FB!!!
bloop bloop.

I don't know how to do differentiation ):
And i have alot of homework undone ):
I just feel like staying at home and do finish everything.
Shiat.
Srcccccccccc ):

hiexzxz everybodiiexzx.
I don't mind typing like this and being discriminated because i rememeber the last time i typed like this i was a super carefree thing w little work ):

I hate memories, those that will trigger deep in thoughts.
YAH LAH I EMO GIRL.
I'm a bitter girl. Maybe this was why i said the fake word out during the sharing session and perhaps i'm really wrong, i'm sorry.
I've experienced shiat stuff that made me repel towards many stuff in life. It made me, urgh, resentful (?) towards many things. And yes, its hard to open me totally up. Maybe i'm the one who really needs to be opened up.
Because i lost faith in humans, because its hard for me to feel real.

Okay, the above should be private-tised.

Went to school fr datelogging, boring. oh when i'm like going to school, just alighted from the bus and walking. Then i saw a bunch of 4c1 girls standing at the traffic light there, like preparing for a fight manxzxz, scary. Too much of class bonding already. For a moment i hesitated whether to join them man, a hugexzxz group kay.

Watched Marley and me w yumi and Veronica.
It was touching towards the end :)
VERONICA CRY UNTIL VERY LOUD (!!!)
Then when we were crossing the road, the green man was blinking. But then we tried to cross, then when we walk a few steps it turned red(!!).
Shocked lah ofcourse! Then we screamed and pull each other's hands and run back.
Bimbotic leh! Must be Veronica's sphere of influence.

yay, src night match tmr! :D
Excited.
lub lub playing at night.

A Little Love - 馮曦妤

*SCREAMS*

I'm very sad. very very sad. very very very sad. very very very very sad. very(x999999) very sad ):

Eh so, my computer really really crashed.
Then my brother was pretty bitter when i told him bout it, opps =/ SORRY LAH ):
Then after fiddling w it for an hour? He pronounced my comp dead and my hard disk crashed (!!?!?!?)
*wtf*

Yeah so. my thousands of photos ( no kid okay) I went to count last year was 800+. I think have like, 2k. Cause every time i transfer to comp my photos then i'll delete them off my phone. And some of which are very memorable photos(!!!) Like those with Cs that kind! ):
Good things will forever be kept close to my heart crap! ):
And hundreds of songg. AND AND AND, worse of all my documents luh ): My notes.
oh-my-word. MY NOTES (!!!!) ):

And no sound one ):
Ah, i need to stop grumbling but i'm really very sad ):

Okay
On a brighter note, my brother gave me his pc. He got 2 for godness sake.
Okay, i shall be contented ):
Love you ! ):

And i just realised my blog looks freaking ugly in IE -.-

ahaha omg i am so mean!

Cause alex's msn nick and julian's look pretty alike. Like those, soccer type yknow?
Then i thought alex was julian. Then cause i was mourning and stuff and didn't rly cared. then i was thinking. huh why alex today so weird then i was kinda mean.
Then after that julian asked me bout maths class today. Then i was like, EH ALEX WAS THERE WHAT. then yeah. da dang.
OMG :D

heehee. i thought my comp crashed but i guess it love me too much to fail me :D
Okay shut the crap later it auto shut down again.
Yesterday i was typing some angry crap and it shut down (!!!)

I'm berry proud of myself.
I didn't use the comp the whole day, until now.
I finished whole chapter of trigo (!!!) :D
Big deal okay.
I'm sucha crazy girl i used arnd 200texts today :O

Oh and i hate anonymous who fame people.
Eat cow dug.
Get a life man. Go play neopets and learn how to be civilised.

dotdotdot, i can't get rid of it out of my pea brain. dot dot dot ):

Shiat Amaths (!!!!)
Shiat is my favourite word heehee.
I'm so bored. I haven't been doing amaths. i think i only did 3 qns the entire day and i'm supposed to do 3chapters.
AND AND I'M LIKE TALKING TO MYSELF.
Omg, i'm becoming like jeffrey :X *cross fingers*

huiping says:
ah i need to study my amaths. byebye

The Fallǯn says:
bb
4c1
fun is siao
study even more siao

Are you happpyyyyyyyyyyy? LOL.
( you're ahem, not bad)

Well, took a breather from Amaths tho i'm supposed to pia.
But its okay, happy girl :)

My feet are still hurting from the soccer game. urgh.

How will you feel when you try so hard and the results are still the same.
When things just don't go your way.

I nearly wanted to broke down.
Shiat day.

Amaths re re exam please get it over and done with soon( w a pass luh). I wna eff it upsidedown, opps. I only failed by a margin. The school ought to let me take luh! ): I am very sad.
If only i have my family brains and genes.

Lets just put a full stop to our........
I'm sorry.

*screams*
I need a break.

omg i saw this quiz at Chenbin's blog. So freaking true.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Click here for quiz

found a place where i can be myself.

Pictures of 4c1 class camp :)

( Sleeping soundly in sumo house! Super tired )


(I was just testing my lighting heehee, but the effect is nice!)









HUIPING(S)!!





HAPPY BIRTHDAY LESSY SHAMAINE :)

I just came back from class camp (!!!)

Friday was like the most eventful day of my boring life luh.
English test + H. chinese test+ SPA Assessment + Class camp (!!)

Screwed SPA assessment like the majority. I freaking wrote the wrong volume used. Tsk.
After school, went to buy class bbq items. Heavy like some shiatxz, netballers have weak arm muscles ):
Went to yumi's house. Wanted to take noon nap but didn't.


Had games, then midnight bbq(1am-3++am) and midnight soccer+bball. Hardcore heehee.
Played w jasper, zhilu, julian etc etc inclu JD. Good companies fr soccer game tho we are noobies luh. But at least i intercepted horxzxz. Soccer is actually very nice leh omg! :D

Had movie screening for the entire night, from like 4am to 7plus. Saw5, get smart, slumdog millionaire.
Tried very very hard to sleep. But in the end i stayed up the whole night.

Then i saw Jeffrey sleeping beside me. Then his mouth was wide-open w a droplet of saliva on this upper lips, like going to drop down then i stared at it fr damn long! LOL. Amazed.

MY EYES ARE VERY PAINFUL NOW ):

I love all the games! Especially the acting out of movie. Freaking funny heehee. I took all the videos except for one where my Phone turned Green and hanged. ( Videos below the post)

I'm so sorry that i'm unable to comprehend you.
It makes me feel so so so helpless.
Or maybe you don't want me to give a shiat bout you.
So, just be it.

For the sharing session. I've no idea why before even the thing start i started crying. Then after which Yumi joined me, and several others =/ It was like....
I think several people made really nice comments, like kerri, kenneth and some others, and JD too.

Oh speaking of kenneth he is such an ass lah.

K: eh whats your l1r5 this time?
me: aiyah, since i started counted l1r5, always had been 21 one. This time no exception.
K: haha you want to go nursing with me?!
*gives him a wtf face*

Had half-class dinnerrrr :)
Gossip Queens and Kings. tsk tsk.
WHY I SO OUT OMG HUIPING, YOU OUGHT TO UPDATE HUIPING!!! :D

( i think i didn't miss out anything)

Videos of 4c1 Class camp :)

Ohmytian.
I was still bragging to Veronica that i broke my record that i didn't drop my phone after 4days of purchase. Then 3hours later i drop it.

My right hand was like clicking the files to send to Veronica.
Then my left hand was holding the phone, cause haven't reply sms. Then my phone buzz again. Then the next moment its on the floor ): urghxzxxz ):
And ah, i told her..."if ah tonight i drop my phone, i go kill myself"
Veronica: YOU CAN GO KILL YOURSELF NOW.

When we were going home. Veronica was telling me bout that 6yrs old boy whom accidentally fall off the flat and dead... At that moment we are in school.
It makes me feel as if,
When you're happily joking and smiling w your friends.
Someone maybe a mile away is weeping or facing the death god.

Okay, i'm getting a lil emotional now =/

Dear J,
You're so popular till it makes me feel as if sometimes i'm nothing to you.
Yet sometimes you are so nice that i thought you were the nicest friend.
Sigh, you asked me to decipher myself but i'm f afraid, yknow.
Its not that i've been thinking too much.
Things are just playing RIGHT in front of my eyes.
What do you want me to do?
Its okay, you'll never see this, like how you never bother to text me back.






Was fiddling with my phone with the fast motion and slow motion effect.
FREAKING FUNNY LOL.

HAHA,

This morning assembly's class video is an irony to what our class is usually like.
Even Mrs chua was shocked to see our class.
EVEN I WAS STUNNED at how violent our class can be.
But, i guess this is the first and last time our class can ever be that noisy. ahahaha.

I'm very angry with my mum okay! (!!!)
My lessons usually ends at 2!? Then its quite normal that i lunch at 3 and ofcourse i wont be hungry during dinner time what right, cause i will be damn hungry at 3 and eat like a glutton.

THEN MY MOTHER WILL GET ANGRY WHEN I DON'T EAT MY DINNER LATEST BY 7 YOU KNOW!
She is pms to the max ohmygosh i very angry (!!!!!!!!)
Watch tv laugh laugh laugh.
THEN ADVERTISEMENT TIME THEN SCOLD ME LIKE SOME EFF.
I'm like, trying to do my work.

AND SHE EVERY THING ALSO WANT TO SCOLD.
Cause my phone battery was flat then when i reach home ofcourse charge and reply sms what right!
LIKE THAT ALSO SCOLD.
ABCDEFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF ):

AT HOME I KEEP HAVE TO STUFF MYSELF WITH FOOD YKNOW.
If i were i scientist i'll invent a box ah. Can teleport the food you have excess to Africa. Win win situation.

URGH.
And i hate to eat its a waste of time especially when you're rushing work.
Its 9 omg.
I want to cry already ):
I haven't done poa and i haven't touch on my differentiationnnnnnnnnnnn.

RAWR VERY ANGRY ):

I wonder if its karma getting to me from my previous life man tsk.



Today is... Tuesday. omg 3 more days :D

I look forward to friday yet i dread it to come.
Friday= CLASS CAMPPPPPPP (:
But before that there will be Chem SPA and Hc big test ohmygodness. I hope i won't fail H chinese again if not i think my mum will go krazy.

I have alot of differentiation homework and and i don't unds. and and i have poa revision to do and its driving me nuts. omg omgggggggggg ):

Shiat stop complaining.

On a happier note!

Went botak jones for lunch w some of the 4c1s.
Tayhuiping, shermaine, chloe, sandra, yumi, adeline, yiqing, jeffrey, julian, jasper.
Eh, i think i didn't miss oout any.
SANDRA REN BU YI MAO XIANG OKAY. Ohmygodness lah. I had a shock of my life. She looks so, uhm, queit, and, serene that kind. She likes soccer alot and she joins kick boxing. Godness.

And yay, took the same bus as huiping.
heehee, i kind of like having someone w the same name as mexzxz.

Whenever i upload those high mega pixel pictures my mozilla firefox gets crazy. When i type "hello" it will turned out to become "olleh" And i can't move the pictures (!!!) So yeah. And i can't type on the post below (!!!)

My hair is so screwed up. DON'T LAUGHHHHHHH ):

Well, i'm beginning to like my phone!! Stop saying its noob okay.
At least it can store documents, and the Camera is pretty good, with great effects. Can blog and stream videos from youtubeee, etc etc. Okay i sound like a promoter. HAHA. Cause everyone went" HUH WHY LG?!?!!?!?!? LG SUCKKK" after i buy my phone ):

Actually, i should be glad that my friends are nice and holy. Like, they don't do backstabbing, sell you out. Its quite ouch to hear those stuff let alone if you're the victim. Not pointing fingers at anyoneeee, just really shocked.

Okay. Went to _ blog andddddddddddddddd.
Sigh.
Lets just leave it aside and not ask why is it like this.
Everything happen for a reasonnnnnn.

S