Life got me pondering :S

Qh, yumi and Veronica can't stop staring at the fat me (!!!) I feel so ):

Qh: Hey have you been fat before?
Me: uhm, yeah when i was P2, like really really fat, much fatter than this.
Qh: Then when you go back to primary school your friends will say"hey huiping! you haven't change for years!!!"

Totally got owned ):
IT HAS BEEN SO SO SO LONG SINCE ANYONE SAID I'M FAT ):
Must be cb's fault luh. Ever since he started saying i'm fat.......

Here Veronica goes again!!!!
me: i'm like blogging now complaining you all bully me!!! ):
Her: Go on, see who pity you. LOL.

WALAUXZXZ ):
Karma, i have been a nice girl okayyyyyyy. ( i think so )

For now, i'll leave life to decide.
Not like you'll check my blogger instead of wp.
As much as you've been irony, i shall stay on my boundary.
Cuz, i don't want that feeling again.
It sucks big timeeeee.

At least i put on a great show in front of you. Ought to deserve a pat on th shoulder (:

You pulled me up, and push me down from million feets off ground.
Ouch ):

Define close friends for me.


Close friends?
I've none.

Dumb moments.
P.s I LOOK FREAKING UGLY IN THE PICTURE): We were supposed to pose for retarded look, but i've no idea why it turned out like this. Well, Whatever :D







I just realise i've been mean to my friends, those who i used to text.
Look, i seriously have no choice.
My parents are grumbling i kept texting while mugging and are demanding good results.
Mugging drains the hell out of me, as well as most of the sec fours?
You've been through Os last yr and you should know how i feel?
I'm sorry for not spending time w my friends, yes i admittt.
i admit that i don't initiate conversations and texts, but ):
Getting karma-ed now.
What if your goodfriend isn't your goodfriend anymore ):

AND,
i shall not say Veronica fat anymore ):
She totally owned me on the bus journey home (!!!). Keep emphasizing on my FAT-ness.
YOU STUPID SWINE(pig).
But heehee, except that i got owned in the face alot of time i finally laughed my heart out after so many gazillion days. I forgot what happened, but something rly funny ):
WE DID SOMETHING DUMB.

We were walking half way then Veronica went to hide behind somewhere.
Then me, TRY TO ACT SMART HEEHEEE.
Then i went to hide also, behind this thing.
Then the thing has a transparent window..... Then Veronica was hiding at the opposite end.
THEN SHE SAW ME LAH, THEN SHE JUMPED OUT.
(totally caught me off guard)

Sumo-house lunch w Veronica and Yumi. I'M SO HAPPYYYY.
Ages since i ate lunch!!!!! :D
Yumi is seriously such a gossip queen, keep digging out the secrets out of me. You seriously can go and be a psychologist or something (!!!)
Well, chocolate bubble tea, heeheeheee.
i'm so fat today i don't care cause i'm a happy girl :D

There are some things in live that no matter how hard you try you still will never get.
Just live w that manxz.

My teacher said he thinks i pass my Amath. Hellxz, lady luck must be with me. Cause i totally blanked out when i was doing the test despite spending ages on the dumb differentiation. Who say hard work pays off man. This is crap. My brain had to freaking die at that moment.

AND I'M VEH SAD);
Cause everyone is saying i'm fat.
gahrahxzblwahxz.

Shiat, i should be studying nowwwwww!! ):

Dear friend, please don't sell me out anymore because i know i won't be able to take it the second time. I'm seriously afraid ):

WELLXZ, SMILE EVERYONE :D
Everyone is looking so stressed and haggard.
The earth is rounddddd, things will be fine :D

Ai jiu zhai yi ji ( Together ) is freaking touching and sad ):
I cried luh zomg. So long since a show made me cryyyy ):
*draws circle*

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I just realise i only have time to blog during weekends, at least :D

Should i trust my feelings or trust your words?
I'm like reading you as if you're a unfixed puzzle, at lost.
Stop saying sorry because it makes me feel, at lost.
Stop doing things and saying about another, it makes me.. at lost.

Okay. that sounds pretty lame. But ):
Life isn't colourful anymore ):

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I'm angry with my calf!!!
Really lor, i know this sounds stupid but then...

Had muscle cramp in the middle of court game ytd.
As Qh always say, the most unusual thing always happen to me at the most unusual time.
After i 3-feeted the shooter, then my calf cramp leh (!!)
Totally took me by surprise. Then she shot in alr, then i was like, painnnn ):
Then the people arnd me was like, "what happen!?"
Okay lah, every time i've injury is all of a sudden one.

anywayxzxz.
NOW STILL PAIN LEH ): it has been like more than twelve hours already luh.
Howxzxz howxz.

Silly C, if you realised how much J loved you.

I JUST REALISE I'M ALWAYS BEING SPECTATOR OF SWEET STORIES LUH ):
Why it always doesn't happen to me one ):

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This is what happens when we get bored in class.
yumi wanted to tie bun so we tried many stupid ways.

I finally update myself w songssssssssssss.

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haha, its like 12am now. Guess i shall consider it as i haven't blog for two days :D

Got back from SRC training not long ago.
I'm starting to feel the feeling Veronica is feeling now.

I screwed my chemistry and amath test.
Disappointed ): For a stupid simple concept, its enough to fail me.

Urgh, feel so crap now):

Don't act as if like you care ; when you don't give a shiat, J.
Had enough of it.
Go away, i don't need you.
So much for being hypocritical on both sides.





I'm so disturbed by something, ew.

Went for B&J free cone day :D Went for it twice luh, cause yq came later to join us then we decided to queue again :D
Had Carls Jr for lunch. Moixzxz found new love fast food! :D
Caught 17 Again. Yumi kept smacking me for not agreeing that Zac Effron is not hot. I got owned flat luh. Nevertheless, TANNED GUYS FTW!!! :D

And i like studied till 1130 ytd night. Was like listening to muttons on the radio. I was literally laughing aloud to myself. So funny pl0x. Cb kept saying very lame! ):

I think i type like an idiotttttttt, shiat.

Happy birthday mokS. HAHA :D

Hate recession! My parents were like telling me that they won't give me present this year cause of recession. Don't know real or fake luh, but then! walao ): I'm so sad. When i was young my birthday celebration is really like a celebration w my favourite food and present and cake!! Now leh! ): Only have a cake, and maybe a box of chocolate then i demanded her to get for me ): I don't wna grow up luh! ):

Napfa test tomorrow! i hasn't run for ages, maybe a month or something?!
I want training man, omg ):
And and and, i'm becoming so white luh.

I'm supposed to do my work (!!!)
But i'm like freaking tireddddddddddd from sleeping 7hours recentlyy

Is there really something called platonic friendship? tsk.
humans are failing me once again.

Damage is such a heart wrenching story ):
Its about this 8 yrs old girl who got sexually abused by her parents and relative since young. Nobody knew what happened. She tried to protect herself by acting violently and throwing nasty tantrums every now and then. Everyone thought she is the worst child on Earth. Until one foster carer tried to change her and eventually moved her, then she turned a little better. But she had to leave. Having learning deficiency like a 4 yrs old, she wrote a small letter. And i cried luh, omg ): freaking touching.

Celebrated my 16 birthday w family today. Like one month in advance luh! Anyway anyway, i love my birthday cakeeee, so freaking cute alright :D

Facebook.








I'm sorry babe.

Almost everyone is asking me why hasn't i got time for them.
Felt so stretched like rubber band ):
Haven't been touching the computer for 2 days consec, break my personal record manxz.

Well, have been seeing those ex-friends. Its an irony terminology, how can friends expire?
Hm, 3yrs ago, we were best friends.
3 yrs later, we don't even acknowledge each other on the streets.
Is this part of growing up? ha.

Does quantity time really maintains friendship? =/

and i feel sad for those nice people that chose the wrong path ):
I saw this guy, i think hes my brother's pri school friend.
He facilitate my P5 camp, then yeah, got to know him.
Cause he looks, quite hot luh, so duh, leaves a deeper impression.
then i saw him again today, totally beng ): sigh.

On the lighter note,
Veronica has the same frequency as me! hahaha.
Veronica concluded that, I love lame jokes, if you want me to laugh, must say those really stupid ones. HAHA.

*veronica says something rly funny*
*me tries to contain my laughter cause alot of people arnd*
Veronica: what are you doing?!
Me: trying to contain my laughter. *laughs a bit*
Veronica: looks like you got to buy a bigger container.
Then i freaking laughed like crazy thing.

I hate preparing for carnival, urgh.

Veronica made me laugh for the first time today.
Boring day today );
Sometimes when i type HAHAHA, i'm not laughing
Secret kay, shhh.



Woo, my phone champion man.
Left my phone for a few hours w/o checking it. Then when i checked it, it blacked out.
Like, er, totally no respond. For a moment i thought the battery flat, then i try charging it.
NO RESPOND LEH
Then i was like, holy shit man (!!!) Die already ah! Cannot on somemore leh!
But after a while, it came to life(!!) :D
Then i had like 5 unread textes, all sent ONE WEEK AGO -.-
So conclusion, if i don't reply your sms means my phone jammed and i didn't receive!!
Then i was hesitating whether to reply, one week late man.

Nothing productive this weekend. Sigh.
I'm losing my motivationnnn to mug.

No, you can't break my code ):

I want to be emotionally unattached.
I'm tired of feeling affected, feeling upset over certain issues.
It makes me feel so vulnerable.
Humans all have emotions. If i can modify genes i'll take away the ability to be upset.
If only, happy is forever.

I always thought ignorance wasn't bliss at all.
I always wanted to know about everything, guess everyone's thoughts.
But i am so damn damn wrong.
Ignorance is really bliss.
It wouldn't have affect me if you didn't tell me that.
Urgh, i don't want to know anything ):
Live in my own utopia.

Do i look like a bisexual!? LOL.
Susin just walked to me and asked if i was a bi to __ and i got a shock of my life. I swear shes the first person in my entire life that doubts i'm straight. HAHA. anyway, yumi say i look bi -.-
I LOOK BI MEH, OMG.

I need to stop doing stupid things today man. HAHAHA =X

Jeffrey, yumi and i went kfc for lunch. Then i bought mudpie and yumi bought apple pie on our way back luh. Then i was like talking, yknow when people talk they use hand gestures sometimes. Then yumi was on my right, then i was relating something. Then my hand just swat her apple pie on the floor. Laughed like crazy. Then i compensate her w mudpie, nevermind luh, still pie :D

Then when i was walking in to school, then i was holding the plastic bag and my phone. And i just slipped my phone, ON THE CEMENT GROUND. Bless you): My heart broke into manymanymany pieces): okay not that drama. Twice in twelve hours! Great luh. Tell me who so pro can drop the phone on the hand just like that one ):

And i'm so mean these few days): I shall start replying everyone the same way ): Urgh, before karma gets me man. Urgh ): I'm having mixed feelings now. I don't want to be unfriendly yet i dont feel like not being unfriendly.

Stop reading my mind you idiot before i box you.

Heehee, i'm pretty happy these few days because i feel so accomplished! :D
Thanks to Mr Chua for training me to manage my time last year man. He seriously make me break down thousand times and now i'm robot already, won't break down anymore :D heehee.

And gosh huiping, you're so marvellous today man. I made Jeffrey got scolded by Mrs Chua twice this year. Can't she sense that i'm kidding only ): boo. I feel so terribly guilty alright. Sigh, thats why i hate people who make assumptions, why do humans always assume ):

1yrs 4 month, i still know nuts about you. Such a goodfriend i'm? ):

Veronica did something ownage during recess today man! Seriously haha. I cannot wait for __ to online to see if he has any reaction. HAHAHA =/

ahyoh. I think its pretty scary to talk to a random schoolmate which you've no idea who is it. And whats worse the person end off with "see you in school tmr" )=) mummy! ):


I feel sad not going for training tonight ):

I'm happyyyy. Cause my hair finally grow back :D
No more bowl kay chenbin and lijie (!!!) tsk.

HAHA. Yknow theres this person who doesn't know whats tsk =/ HAHA.

i finally finish my Habit compo like finally woo!
Getting fat and white like shiat, haven't been training for like two weeks already ):

urgh, someone is online
*goes offline*

Sometimes when i look at netball games, when i chance upon redsports website, when i saw those photos, when sharon textes us, it makes me remind of B div 09 ):
Sometimes i wonder how far our potential would have stretch.
I miss sharonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ): rawrrr.
I want dying trainings ):

Whenever i look at my fats remind me of sharon too!!!
Cause when shes around it was not there ):
Goshhyxzxz ):

Sigh, i'm so sorry.
Theres no way one can balance so many things.
so that, giving up some is the solution.



shilin and lijie. Susin and lijie were like saying shilin's backview looks like guy. GOT MEH
Then they asked me to see. Then i was like, *pull lj's hand* i tell you a secret " you look more like a guy." she punched me ): Big bully. HAHA.

Thanks so much mate, for betraying me.
Yknow you're the only person i trusted most and tell everything to.
See what you did to me?
I wonder how much more did you tell.

Heeheee, today is such a packed day ): Woke up at like 7plus, tried to do homework.
Then met lijie supposedly at 1145 at dhouby ghaut. But she arrived at like, 12 bit. TSKTSK.
Then trained to chinese garden to meet susin.
Wanted to walk to the sports hall but it was rainining damn heavily, no cab ):
Then we wanted to walk, then i was like, " i think by the time i walk there my translucent shirt will become transparent."
Then susin was like, "ITS ALR TRANSPARENT NOW" ( caught abit of rain alr )
Damn malu luh ):
I tried to boob smack lijie, heeheeheee :D ( guess what!!! ) secret

My eye veryyyyyyyyyy pain );
toodles! heehee.

Quality not quantity :D

I'm like running a fever now, maybe its fated that i can't go for this week's training.
Today is my brain malfunction day man.


Happy birthday Qianhui! :D
I'm very sad (!!) Cause i can't complete Qh's part2 present, urgh.

Tell me why, tell me whats wrong w playing and studying.
Because i'm so so sick of not understanding you. Yknow, i wish i want to grow up right now, mature and understand how parents actually feels. I hate being teenage, because i know i'm just a ignorant stubborn like anyone out there.
Why, why can't i continue?

And you have to spoil my day.
Or maybe my day is destined to be bad today.

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Well, can i say i'm glad that i came online? *smiles spastically* ops.
(thaddxzxz shoo ultiiimattexzzxz sweeetnesshhhxzxz worrhsxzxz) -.-

Had a little pms during school hours, luckily it didn't flare up. (need sleep manxz)
But at least my day didn't end very boring-ly. (okay i shall stop that)

I just found out emo blog post very uncool!!!
I shall change style, no more emo.
Emo shoo shooo.

I feel replaced ):

Sometimes i've this selfish thought. That i want my friends to have little friends so i can never get replaced or, forsaken, forgotten that sort of thing.

Cb is such an ass, as usual.

Cb: I'm not like you.
me: duh, i'm cuter than you.
Cb: no i'm cuter
me: self indulgement, understand.
Cb: you're living in self denial! Ok, i admit you're cuter. cos your hair like bowl. LOL

nehneh, i curse you get karma next time your hair turn out like really literally ultimate bowl shape then yknow!!

Today is a busy day.
Chem, poa, amaths homework plus the stupid dumb chinese test tmr!
I lost my paper :D Berry clever worhxzxz.