Tired with a question mark.

The flu and cough really drains me upside down. Was coughing like mad.
*enters the train this morning and i start coughing*
NOBODY NOTICE ME!
Okay, so i sat down, and cough again
Then the lady in front of me literally stared at w horror eyes. LMAO.
okay lah, i was doing it deliberately but it was real bad. I think i'm really noisy during exam today, keep blowing my nose :D

& i nearly got banged down by the car. It was literally one metres away from me!!!
Lucky nica called out my name and the car was driving at a snail pace.
God blessed, phew. If not i won't be sitting here typing this now.
What a traumatizing way to start my morning with.

& my room is really quiet! Makes me feel uneasy.
*blast some music*

Okay, you all can ignore this part.
I wish i meant what i said that night so it wouldn't have bothered me so much.
Maybe its really gone for you.
Disheartened, disappointed, helpless. idk
I hope its a phase.
Why am i ______ now.

Because i'm still human.
I grew tired waiting.
And i had to keep on waiting, just tell me how long more?
It feels like i'm hanging onto an invisible string.
Its not just about me, you, and i fully understand that. & this is also the part where i hate most.

4493.) I am so afraid to trust anyone. So afraid to love, but I continue to. I thought you would be my last broken heart, but obviously not. And now I try to keep everyone from leaving me like you did. How? you might ask. By doing things most people would regret. But I have decided that I won't regret anything I do. I've regretted nothing since I left you

502.) everyday i'm looking to your name on my cellphone's contact list. everyday i want to call you. and everyday i'm counting the days. today it's been 328 days that you're dead

blogsecret.tumblr.

So the story goes like this.....
We were walking to the bus interchange to continue our "sharing" session( qianhui, yumi, veronica and i) cuz there are cockroaches and rat at the main gate (!!!)
So yeah on the way i was talking half way... then qianhui was holding the grapes, ( note: SHE HAS BEEN CARRYING IT FOR DAMN LONG! determined to carry it home) Then she just dropped on the floor, nobody bang her. HAHAHAHA
The path is damn dark luh, can't take proper picture, this is the best ahha. So the first picture is the grapes and the second picture is qianhui looking sad.

Heehee. i finally set my mind to clean up my study desk after thousand times of nagging from my mum! I literally cleared everything. No textbooks, papers, tys anymore. All cleared :D My mum was awe-struck, then she said, " i didn't ask you to clear everything!? :O "
*grin*

One week, still sick ):
I shall apply for Leave Of Abscence too?!?! teeheheeehe :D

You're just like all others.
So why should i try on something that i know will only fail?
it had repeated 6 godamn times in my life.
Stupid girl, 6 times and still didn't learn. Champion

& the fact won't change, will never, for you.



Haha, anyway hi yumi, i'm very lazy to connect my usb, heehe ^^

Credits to mel.
I became tanned again like ohmytian):

I'm so horribly, terribly sick.
Was coughing and blowing my dumb nose the whole night that i feel like cutting my head off ):

Heehee, i finally visited the doctor and he said i don't have swine flu! :D
medicine are(SSS literally damn lot) bitter, BLEK.

School is reopening, hoho, no energy to do work, hoho.

Maybe it was meant for the better. (L)

I'm one confused girl.

Maybe we're approaching the end.Everyone wants forever, but every time we have to go through Goodbyes.

Shit, i'm sad, very.

No, i'm happy, like this girl (:
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Great. everyone is sick, hoho.
I'm scared everyone will be down w swine flu.

Jeffrey, Veronica, Qianhui, and many of their church peeps and i are sick! Great!
I'm really scared of Veronica, I'M MEETING HER LATER!!!! gawd. She better not have swine flu else i'll haunt her.


Favourite spag + get my stuff + Netball camp laterrrr (:

OH MY TIAN.
MY SKIN IS PEELING FROM THE SUNBURNNN(!!!)
This is a big thing okay. i've never got sunburn that peels on my nose before ):
i look like a clown luhz, red nose.
Luckily i don't have to go out.

AND MY BROTHER JUST SPRAYED SOME PERFUME.
Shucks, damn strong and smelly.
Okay shooooooot, i should be rushing assignments):

So pressed for time, sigh ):
Okay, i'm starting to feel the stress, sheez.

Note to self: must not neglect anyone. Talk to mum, talk to friends, finish all the shit work at the same time

& you weren't there,
On the verge

no expectation= no disappointment.
lesson learnt.


Woowoo, this picture has got hidden meaning. But i didn't intend to take it this way, it just turned out unexpectedly.

SRC CARNIVAL PEEEKTURES ON POST DATED 20JUNE (:

I'm so energized, not.

Been having on and off fever. i'm scared of swine flu!!! okay, please don't tell me on and off fever is one of those. *search for symptoms of swine flu*

"The symptoms of swine flu in people appear to be similar to the symptoms of regular seasonal flu and include fever( X) , cough, sore throat(X), body aches, headache(X), chills and fatigue(X). "

HAHA, okay fifty percent, *drops a big heavy stone*
I'm not being paranoid okay! I've been visiting really crowded places, if someone just cough or sneeze beside me then i gg already! SG is so small afterall!

Okay, we're only like left with 1 week of holidays.
i'm still left with
-6 sets of POA paper
-10 chinese reading reports
-3 sets of amath papers
-2 sets of emath papers
-3 sets of chinese papers
-3 english essays

And on top of that theres still revision for term3 exams! hohoho.
Can i have my procrastinator trouphy please

Shall end of with a spastic picture

My throat hurts so much that its a chore swallowing saliva.
I wna kill a chicken! urghxz


Such a fool.
Knowing this day will come yet kept deceiving myself that it won't.
Disappointed, very ):


Shucks, i'mmmm sick. No swine flu no worries heehee.
Okay, my family just forbid-ed me to leave house cuz the pandemic is getting worse.
126 cases in SG already! ): mytian, i don't want t dieeeeeeeeeee.

i did a dumb thing just now.
I switch on my windows media player for half an hour, then i realised i didn't on my speaker. Champion ^^

sighhhh, where were you

I only slept for 8 hours in 2 days. i meant two days add together 8 hrs.
Damnxz shag *yawn*

Did saikang, had little sunburn (rareeee)
When the thing is almost ending, we were all hoping they can faster play finish as we're all damn tired.
Then lele did a very.... amusing and cute thing that cracked all of us up. HAHA.
She wanted to sit on the cardboard-box, and the cardboard gave way and she just fall into the box.
Classic much.

okay, i went to weigh myself and i gained weight again ):
HAHA,
okay, i don't know whether is it the sunburn that makes my head hot or is it that i'm just running fever. Don't care, *go sleep again*

Sigh, though my brain is not functioning well, it doesn't mean that i can't think or have no emotions.
i'm not your game, please.
So, this is how much it means t you.

THIS PICTURE IS SO DRAMA-MAMA HAHAHA.
Retarded ttm, its my wallpaper and i kept laughing at it, siao




THIS GUY IS ON PROMO, HAHAHAHA!
Happy day (:
Go out whole day = happy me!
J's retarded shock face is damn classic omg, but i can't post it here if not he'll kill me. HAHA.
Ate carl jr (!!!) like finally heehee very happy now and i kept eating the whole day tdy, omg fat):
And watch ghost of girlfriend's past.
I WANT TO WATCH A FREAKING NC-16 MOVIE! Urgh, i've been looking forward to 16 so i can watch it officially but there no nice movies w that rating, nehneh. Am i just born in the wrong year ):
okay anw, going to read digital fortress like finally!!!!
Then going to take a nap, yes literally a nap. I've t like wake up at 5.
Then off to src for full day carnival!!!

Nah, i'm sorry for not forking out time.
But what can i do?
Leave it aside?

Yes, karma get me then. Because i'm really tired of the daily things.
If time can really have a standstill.
I just like, being alone lately. Thats my fault too, sorry.

Sorry W, C & C.



heehee, i'm so glad i found my long lost friend :D
and it brightens up my dayyy (L)
haha, i still remember we used to talk everydayy :D I sound so ghey, zomg.

She talks wonder manz, show you

Audrey. says:
hahahahaha
yknow when i saw ur pic i thought u looked like a dancer lah hahahaha
but you're a netballer
rawr.


HAHAHA OH MAN, I DANCE LIKE A CHICKEN CAN HAHA.

HAHA, i'm such a moomoo.
I love to update my blog many many times in a day :D
Cuz i'm like online( but busy status) the whole day tdy.

Jeffrey is such a pig, okay his brother is called jason

*Jeffrey keep coughing*

Jason mimic a new reporter saying: THERES A NEW CASE OF SWINE FLU IN SG!
Jeffrey adds on : BUT THIS TIME IS A REAL PIG!

HAHAHAHAHA, i laughed for 5mins lah omg.
Its okay if you don't catch it.
Its a joke for higher intelligence

ANYWAY CHEER UP YOUMEEXZXZ, TEEHEEEWEE

These are (:

3380.) I'm in love with you, but you're so deeply in love with your girlfriend that you'll never see me as more than a friend. The worst part is, since she and I have the same name, I know what it would sound like to hear you tell me you love me

3383.) Thinking about you and her together made me so sick that it sent me to the hospital. Your relationship didn't last. But my ambulance bill sure did

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And.......

3340.) Do you remember that one night, on the park, when I first told you I loved you? And truth is, I really do. I'm just afraid you'll be like the other guys who'll rip my heart out. That's all. Im sorry I've been weird lately

credits: blogsecret.tumblr

0149) i'm counting down to the days before you leave me, and i wish i failed my basic calculations.

you came, and ruined everything i was building up.
So how do you want me to feel dearest?

I can't stop grumbling about things, urghz.

I think i inherited this you yang de ji yin from my mum.
She was grumbling to me hours ago about how messy my room is, yadahgahblah.

Some teacher in the school own big time man, seriously.
After writing 2 essays and setting us the 3rd theme. She told us that all the three essays have to fit into 3 big theme that she gave us.
You know what?
Both my 2 previously written essay does not fit into all the 3 big theme.
So?
I MUST CHURNED OUT 3 MODEL CHEEM CHEEM ESSAYS IN 2 WEEKS!
& the time i put in to my previous 2 essays can flush them down the toilet bowl.
Love many manyz manz.

In addition, term 3 exam is in full swing the first day of school reopen!
Merry christmas in advance, xoxo.

Okay, blame it on myselffff. Why aren't i born w big brains


PAPA DAY IS COMINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
OH GOSHYXZXZ.
And i just realised that Veronica has gone to her church camp, sheez slow ):

Lesson learnt of the week: Why bother explaining to people when they're not even open to explanations? it'd only make things worse

And i feel like killing people now, assumptions should be strike off everyone's dic.

Girl: hey....
Boy: what?!
Girl: i'm sorry *give him an apple*

HAHAAHAHAHHAA!



THIS BOY IS SUCH A SWEET (L)
He looks cute in the show (only)
HE IS MINE! SO SHOOO SHOOO ~~



I suddenly miss netball.
Feel like going down and watch the juniors train, be it C div or B div.
I know qh theyor is g'na say i'm crazy watching C, i don't even know them :/

Went to see some random Sec one(s) blog.
And i really miss the time where we have so much free time.
We even train randomly and just stop and shop.
Okayyyyyy, i should stop daydreaming and do my work ):

Ahhhhhhh, i used to post my homework up.
But i decided its too depressing to do so and it'd take up a whole day just to list them out.
No joke ):

Losing faith, sigh ):

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HEEEHEE.
WAKAKAKA
WAKOKOKO.

I just realised that....
My phone actually can touch screen. I always thought its just partially touch screen.
I am such a mushroom (!!!)
I accidentally pressed a button and da dang! heehee LG secret is lubz lubz :D

I know i've been repeating this. But i can't help it,
boys over flowers is damn nice (!!!!)


me too(:

I can't stop people's.... opinion.
But it piss me off when people assume and spread their assumptions everywhere.
When you don't understand the situation then keep the things to yourself.
Why was i so nice to hint you and in the end got defamed?

Was reading Angels and Demons and there was this part where Dan Brown said : Everything has got its opposite, yin and yang.
Just like right and wrong. And you just happened to be on the wrong side. Sigh, helpless.

Hmm, boys over flowers is not bad afterall (:

Chill off day :D

Woke up and prepared and met Veronica at 10 to have Nasi lemak for breakfast near our house! Nice nice, me like :D
Got yumi's polariod at cheena town and headed to townnnn. I don't know why i was so nice so agree to help yumi get her polariod lor!
Very happy cuz i bought a 3 inch heels.
Very nice, i like! But i look literally like a giant. Everywhere i walk people stared at me. I guess i got like 1.8m+ manz. Krazy.
Bought another two tops :D & dark chocolate ice cream :D but i'm broke now ):
Went to yumi's house to give her her stuff. She was like at my shoulders when i wore the heels lah zomg! yumi your fever made you shrunk!

Went home and my mum got the hell outta me cuz of the things i bought ):
She never fails to spoil my happy day.
Its okay, gotten used to it anw.

Can't believe my senses were that accurate, disappointed ):

What should i do now ):

I've been thinking of goddamn long but i still can't get my answer ):

Its finally officially the last day of school for the Sec Fours, so hurrray! :D
*look at my pile of homework and revision list*
Sigh.
Maths was a disaster cuz mr goh didn't come tdy. I got a shock of my life haha literally.
The guys were playing soccer behind and girls playing poker.
And my face was literally :O when i enter the classroom, classic.
Hope yumi recovers soon ):

I just ordered pizza hut for dinner!!! :D
Happy girlxz, cuz i called chicken meatballs for add ons heehee.
Fatz but its okay cause i forgot to eat my lunch, HAHA :D
i'm so hungry nowwww, i shall go and stand at my door and wait for the delivery man to come :D

Was supposed to get my digital fortress w J tdy.
But after we walked to the bus stop we were too tired and went home. Ugh, skin him alive ):
Someone get for me digital fortresss ): I'm damn lazy to drag my feet to the library.
I'm hinting something :D
HAHA.

Ahhhh, i'm looking forward to tmr.
Hope i get cheap thrills wooxz.
Heels heels heels.
I just realise i'm not really tall afterall.

i feel so indebted t her, i'm sorry.
Sigh,

HAHAHA OMG I SUDDENLY REMEMBER THIS.
VERONICA AND I CHAMPION TTM!!

Cuz every morning she will wait for me at the void deck of my house to go to school tgt.
Then got this partition wall separating the lift side and the table where people sit down side.
Then she was standing at one side, I WAS STANDING AT ANOTHER SIDE.
and i think we walk past each other through the partition -.-
then we missed the bus.......... Champion ttm!! ^^
And our second bus just drove away behind our first bus.
Today is really our day man. HAHA.

Everyone is driving me to sleep man, cuz of my deep champion eye bags.
HAHAHA.
its only 1145 my dearss ):


Ohmy.

Yumi suspect she got dengue fever!! There goes shopping date ): nevertheless, i think i still got yq and veronica!:D They better don't ps me or else i kick their butts to pluto.

Was really really tired tdy, i only slept for 5hrs w/o noon nap.
I keep losing track of time and procrastinating.
But at least i don't glare and pms at everyone when i'm tired, tsk.

HAHAHAHAHAHA
VERONICA I LIKE TO TALK TO YOU.
Gosh this is so random :D

Happy day (: tyJ :D

I can't believe that i had to come to this stage that i've to fu yan you to try and make you feel better.
Closer, is actually further.

I feel so out of place, maybe it was never meant to be in the first place.

Anyway, I RAN MY 2.4KM TODAY!!!
The last time i ran was like, gazillion years ago. You can infer from the white-ness of me. This is my shittest timing luh. Normally we'll like get A with total ease, don't need check the score thingy. Then this year i got a freaking B !!! 14:33, me sad ): anyway, i was feeling so high after i ran and i went to get bubble tea :D

It was quite a happy day!!! ( Till you tell me that......... )
How long is your abit more ):

Nevermind.
i'm looking forward to this saturday!!!!
Town w fat ugly girlfriends. HEEEHEE :D LUBZ LUBZ TTM.

Sigh, please don't judge me please ):
Nothing has changed

Sorry cures stuff? Bullshit.

I feel so caught in between. Imagin A tells you stuff about B, but B is praising A.
Whats wrongggggggggggg.
Why are there so many confinements on Earth.

I did terribly for my mock exam, shit.
i'm horribly demoraliseddd.


I DON'T WNA STUDY, URGH.

HAHAHHAA, I LIKE TO TALK TO VERONICA.
Shes the only one that can make me laugh out loud in front of the computer, LOL.

V: *tells me about some disgusting guy who.....*

Huiping says:
EEEE HE TOTALLY MAKE MY BALLS SHRINK MAN -.-

Veronica says:
LOL
CRAZY AH
AHAHAHHAHAHA.
U GOT BALLS MEH
dont shrink lah
so small ald
shrink later dented how
LOL

Huiping says:
YOU'RE THE CRAZY ONE LAH OMG, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO REPLY YOU!

And we started laughing like crazy.

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Urgh. I feel so disgusted now.
Whats with trying to throw yourself at guys that you barely know? Pl0x much much. Do you know whats trying too hard? Still thought you were just, overly-friendly. Totally want to blink my eyes at you man!

Alrightxz. My brain is mal functioning today.
HAO LEI AH X.X
And i do really stupid things when my head hurts.

Veronica and i are really weird people.
She told me something happy about her, and i was really very happy for her :D
Then i told her something happy about me, and she was really elated, AND STARTS JUMPING -.-
However, we aren't really happy about our happy stuff. I mean... I'm more happy for her than for myself. Weirdz.

Feel like strangling you.
I don't know which lines are real and which lines are fake.

Huuuhuuuu.

I should stop procrastinatinggg :O
I slacked so much this week till i'm piled up with so much work ): I have to finish 3 sets of Maths else mr goh will slaughter me. Noooooooooooooooooooooo ):

Anyway. Went for the aesthetic concert :D Its not that bad afterall! :D 'cept that the people on our right kept screaming and shouting like nobody's business, urghz. The art club can really draw well!!! :D
I did something really unglam ytd, oh manz. *scream*
AND HAHA GUESS WHAT.
During the one to one session w mrs chua, the picture discussion got this guy w curly bombastic hair? I SWEAR I SAW THAT GUY ON THE BUS!!!!!! LOL. Spastic much.
Reached home near 12 ):

I would appreciate it if blinded can stop posting ugly comments about Shamaine. uncivilized.




HEEHEE, WOOWOO, AHWAHWAH.
I should be asleep now tho :O
its like almost 1:30



I don't understand anonymous, what good do they get.

I screwed up my prelims oral.

I fumbled, stuttered.
During picture discussion, there was this pretty, fat man.
Then i was like, "in the middle of the picture depicts a pretty, plump man..."
Then ms soh cleared her throat, like ahem. Hope its coincidental. LOL.
And she asked me like, 7 question for the conversation part. Shucks ):
And she had to help me finish my sentence for the last part because i was totally at lost for words, i was like, stuck there, hanging in the mid air.


Went to shop todayyyy. Saw many many many people :O
I'm so shagged ):

heehee, i think theres plastic in my eye ): eeew.
Cause when i took out my lens a small part broke off and i've no idea where is it. Hope its not inside :O gasps.

I saw a damn chio wallet from charles and keith tdy!!!
And a sexaye heels from forever21 ):

English Prelims Oral tmr :OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I'm hooked to deception point heeweeweee.

i'm so drained ):

Had a bad feeling today is going to be a bad day from the start.
Hong lao shi scolded us for 1hr cause we did really badly for the Chinese exam.
She kept pin-pointing to me. Yesssss, i know i finished damn early and my handwriting is just too illegible. But i freaking swear this is the first time you brought this issue up to me. Urghxz, freak.

I'm so grumpy now ):

I dislike teachers telling us we suck, how lousy we are. " you all are the worse batch yadahgahdahblah" Then shouldn't we do something about it together?! Other than wasting half an hour trying to get the point sent to us for gazillion times.

Staying back for the first two weeks of june hols for the whole day makes me bitter.

And, got reprimanded by mrs chua as well.
HOW GREAT, AWWSHUHMEHXZ worhxz.
She asked me to read the oral passage twice and its, LOUD ALR. I was almost shouting. And she still said it was soft and too speedy, therefore, failed me, terribly i guess? Crap. Luckily the picture was well done. Else she screw me up like some.........shit.

Okay, grumbled finish.
Shall finish up my organic chem 10questions, amaths paper and ywlx and sleep. Wow, look at the time alr ):