I'M THE ONLY ONE WHOSE TAKING Os THIS YEAR AND IS ONLINE :O !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You’re probably thinking I’ve forgotten all about you by now, but that’s far from it. I have missed you ever waking day, and my heart still hurts, but I’m getting better. I continue to smile and still go on without you. I know I have missed you, but I have kept it all inside me, only for me to know. I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you’re doing, what we used to talk about, to laugh in your voice. Just, everything. I miss it all. However, I feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason. Should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future, that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this:no matter what, even through the screaming fights, the disagreements, mistakes and the tears we’ve cried, never, ever did I give up on you. So if you ever need a helping hand, do not hesitate to ask. I may be far away, but I will always be in reach.

Despite O lvl being 26 days away, i'm still using computer and online-ing every single day.
Oh man, i'm so going to die.
Okayyy, i've made up my mind and start going for night focus, damn it.

Today when i was alighting the bus. I stood up from my seat and knock my head against the ceiling.
So much for being tall, urgh.
Luckily nobody saw -grin-
OKAY BUT NOW EVERYONE KNOWS.
ITS STILL PAINFUL LORRRRRRRR. Stupid metal railings. I'm going to get stupid :(

yayyy, i feel so blessed.
Just realised that whenever i'm depressed or whatsoever, some friends will come and talk sense into me and brighten up my dayyyy.
Thank you truckfull-loads to, you-all-know-who-you-are.



“ When you love someone, it will always stay there. I have to believe that even though we go our separate ways, we still will be connected by this bond, forever. I’m not sure if it’s a good thing or a bad thing, but I know it’s a true thing. I know that no matter where you go or who it’s with, we will always be connected. And when we look up at the stars, when we know it was real, and it was why we’re who we are.

Someone to make you smile when you’re sad
Someone to tell you you’re beautiful
Someone to look forward to seeing you every day
Someone to call you every night
Someone to say I love you and mean it

Sometimes you just need someone.

& i just need someone to spur me on when i'm studying. you're not approachable anymore. hai

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Tumblr never fails to make me feel happier [:
Tumblrarity shot up by 300 within a night! -jumps arnd-

Sighhh.
One more month, we need to bid goodbye to the school, to our teachers, to our classmates.
When we were having Chem today. I was thinking, how rare it is for the class to have proper lessons tgt, only english and chem?
One more month and all the familiar faces will be gone.
Hmm.

Sighhhh.
Sometimes i wonder why must i?
Want me to conc, want me to do well.
You know... theres something call, p-r-e-s-s-u-r-e, you're putting me in?
Trying becuz thats the only way to close the damn gap, yknow.

Sigh, oh man.
I'm kind of traumatised now luh.
This is roughly what timo and i talked about.

(my pm: pressured)

timo: pressured not to do well?
me: hmm yeah. More of being scared to de-prove.
timo: how much for prelims?
me: 11, you that time got how much?
timo: sia la. haha 12, and Os 12 again. sian diao..
me: OMG WAIT, how much your term 3 get? 21 right?!

wtf, its so similiar can.
I DON'T WNA GET TWELVE :(

BREAK THE TIMO CURSE!!!!! >:

timo: sia la....
me: WHY YOU KEEP SIA LA, WTH.
timo: Cuz i'm in sa. figure that out.

-FREEZE-

I want to screw myself man like seriously :(
Was going to sleep after finishing my sbq like yayy finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*jumps arnd*
Then someone reminded me somehow that i've got chinese to do.
ANDS ITS FREAKING 1230AM NOWWWW : (
Sighhh.
Hate you chinese, always deprive me of my sleep. Urgh.



“Isn’t it funny how you can think you’re completely over someone, but if you drive past his house, stumble upon a meaningful song you both shared, or even get a glance of him on the street… just in an instant, it can change all that. And you start to remember the pain. And that hollow space is feeling more and more like the Grand Canyon with every second that goes by. But you bury these feelings deep down, so deep that you’re sure no one will be able to tell. To the outside world, you smile and act like nothing is wrong or ever will be. Everything’s just perfect. For that split second that you’ve locked eyes, a tiny whisper, say “make this last forever, only and just moment forever and ever.” But after a second or so, you go along your own merry way, all the while home realizing how much you do miss him, how much you still love him… and it sticks with you for days, weeks, maybe months, until fate decides to hand you another one of those unexpected moments. And then you finally understand the worst feeling in the world is when the person you love the most is standing right next to you, yet you can never have them. Try as you may, you can’t make someone love you.”

It thrills me much much to see a whole long list, like two times your screen of reblogs, likes and follows :D

tumblr tumblr tumblrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
:D

my brother's face is damn black cause i asked him to print 20 page document for the 2nd time. oppsy :D

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OH MANNNNNNNN.
I nearly got locked out of my room.

I went out of my room, hurriedly.
So i didn't put the stopper.
Then suey-ly, it slammed.
Like, oh-my-god.
DIE.
hahahaha, then my parents face was dman black cuz i wake them up, heehehee :D

oh no.
Need to start studying : (
Onlined like for the whole day, well done man hp (!!!!!!!!!!)

Fine if you want things your way.
Fine if you do actions w/o considering people.
Whole night, for that text that never comes.
how disappointed i was; how insensitive were you.
Its alright, you never fail to disappoint me every time.

This is called, bad debt that can never be recover.
Do you even realize that you're the one whose creating the gap?

Disgusts me how humans can be so insensitive.
Well, this is a general statement.

Removed cbox for god's sake.

I'm pretty satisfied w my prelim results :D heeheee yayyy.
Guess its the first time my mum is contented about my results too. Its rare to satisfy her alright!
& i'm really happy becuz my mum approves of anything that i wna do in the future and gave constructive advises.

Kay, life is grrreat now, finally (:
Hope it lasts.

Tumblr time! :D :D :D

"Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you,
even if you can’t breathe without them. " – ~ Taylor Swift

I'm actually not supposed to be using computer from today onwards.
But look what i'm doing now.
Oh my tiannn.

Is it just me or what :(
I'm starting to feel the awkwardness, yet i don't know what to do about this. Unusual much

Memories.
They'll be enough to last through the 6 weeks. I guess :/

I'm never in your agenda, right?


I hate it when you make decisions for me.
I don't care if its for my own good for whutxz-so-ever.
Plox?


Forget it.

Need to stop tumblr-ing, stop blogging, stop plocking, stop onlining like nobody's business, stop getting distracted and start focusing, like now.
34 days to O levels.
54 days to freedom.
58 days to ....

Contented? maybe :)

“ If you hold back feelings because you’re afraid of getting hurt, you end up hurting anyway.

“ Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone, and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering. — Ida Scott Taylor

Today is awesome, amazing, beautiful, marvelous, great, perfect! :)
Like, one of the best days of my life, heeheeweeewee.
*makes a mental note*
Shit, i need to stop smiling before my mum thinks i'm crazy.

Kay anyway, watched Phobia2.
Its damn gory and disgusting. I swear i nearly threw up after the third story!
But the last story is really funny and epic.
& i had Ben and Jerry chocolate therapy! heehee.
Sounds ordinary enough but i'm on cloud nine :) Thanks to-the-person-who-accompanied-me-today.

Tmr onwards is going to be intensive, sigh.

I just online the whole day tdy :)
Many people thought i'm krazy heehee.
Cuz i was really bored heehee. Someone didn't talk to me till like 6pm -grumble-

Today will be a better dayyyyyyyyy : )

“ Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.


Huiping, you're so damn proz man.
People are going up and you're going down.
Guess this is the result of excessively tumblr-ing and gaming, urgh.
Ha-ha, and jeffrey don't feel so obliged, you're not responsible for my grades.
Feel like cursing and throwing stones.

4c1 is entitled to a weekend wind down, yayyyy.
So... what should i do now? :/
Not like i've been wind-ed up in the first place.
Oh man, i should just bang the wall right.

i'm supposed to pack my rooom, rahhhh.
I feel so lazy now.
Plock time, yayyyy, toodles.
Shit i sound so dumb. I just wake up what -pout-

Hm, so i guess i've the rights to post anything i like right?

Prelims finally ended like zomggg -jumps for joy-
Kay anyway, went to buy ingredients to cook spag. Someone's virgin cooking experience?!?!? haha kay anyway it started raining really heavily and i swear its almost like a typhoon! I got blown away :( HAHA.
J's kitchen is best man. We spent 10minutes trying to figure out how to turn on the gas tap. Hands downnnnn, totally. Then called his maid in, and she laughed at us :/ tskkkk. But, anyway, it was me whose supposed to be cooking, but yeahhh, J did almost everything -ignorance- lalala.
Supposed to go ecp after that but plan went hay-wired. We nearly toured around whole SG trying to search his lao zi book. -stare-
Okay, main point.
Had heart-to-heart talk and cleared up pretty much things = happy :)

Okay, i'm damn drained now. Slept 5hrs ytd night, brwahhh. I don't know what i'm typing.

Anyway, you're only making things worse, fyi. Not for me, but for, you.

Reminiscing being a kid. heehee.
LOL. This stupid guy was trying to show off his muscles.
But seriously uh, i've to admit its solid like some metal, literally.
Anyway caught the time's travellers' wife.
Maybe i'm tired or something, i don't find it really nice. It just kissing and kissing. Chenbin was like "this movie uh, keep kissing. Like every 15minutes, never talk finish kiss and have sex" ( okay the last 3 words i added myself) but really luh!
Then theres this two girls behind us, they were really obessed about the show and went "OMG! I WANT A TIME TRAVELLER AS MY HUSBAND!"
The dumb guy laughed out loud lah, damn malu -hide-

Ate at xin wang cafe. The person was really pushy into us being a member. Was totally turned off by them, urgh.
Walked around orchard central, its damn coolz. Then this lady own big time seriously
We were standing beside the lift.
This lady approached us and ask "may i know where is the lift?"
*points at the thing beside*
then she asked again "uhh, where is it?"
Me: " errr. you know this thing? *points at the lift again* "
then she enquired again "oh oh! how do i get over there"
Us: "errr. you walk over here *shows her the way* "

LIKE OMG THE LIFT IS REALLY JUST BESIDE!
Maybe its transparent luh thats why.

uh-oh-god.
Was trying to find something and i turned my room upside down, figuratively.
Okay, its in a huge mess now & i'm damn lazy to clear it, urgh.

So what if i tell you how i feel? doesn't seem to make any difference to me.
Yes, maybe i did change, maybe we did became distanced. But at least i remember what is 15th.
Was that on purpose or what? i guess not.
Yeah, maybe you have forgotten everything. Looks like it.
You totally make me feel like a ...

“Most people talk when they have nothing to say. I’m not talking because I have too much to say. None of which I’d want you to hear.” Tired.
Shall take my noon nap.
toodles :)
Tmr will be a better day.

Heee.
Oh man, more and more people are playing plock (Y)
Plock is so cutexz heehee, me like.

I'm still damn happy cuz i solved one really difficult Amath qns just now, heehee.

OH MY GOD WHY MUST TUMBLR GO UNDER MAINTENANCE :(
Kay since i can't tumblr now i shall blog about my boring day.

Went to school.
Nearly late.
Had amath and history paper.
Wrote till my hand nearly broke.
MY THUMB IS DAMN PAIN LOR. -pout-
Bought a big big pack of hokkien mee home.
Ate, slept.
Eat again, DA DANG!
Shucks i lead a pig slacker life manz seriously. Need to start feeling stress and studying hard :)

My brother is damn mean i tell you.
& i totally got owned :(

-aunt asks brother how much As he got for Os-

Bro: 5 A1s, 4 A2s and 1 B3
Aunt: Huiping, so how many A1s you wna get?
Me: errr.....iuno.
Aunt: where d'you wna go after Os?
Me: hmm, iuno eh. Maybe np, business aspect?
Bro: ahyo, you fail english one how to conduct business? the person don't even know what you talking about!
Me: ........ (fine, can't talk back to a future lawyer will only get shoot back)
Aunt: huh, then where d'you recommend her to go?
Bro: go be scientist lah. whole day pour chemicals don't need english one

Walau, champion right. Best (Y)

GRRR. TUMBLR STILL HAS MAINTAIN FINISH :(

Mr nova, you're expecting me to say something today mmm?
I...am...leaving...those...things...aside :)

Being nice doesn't always mean you'll get repay back.
Live w it.

I'm so cui now zomg.
Have to chiong finish my work within like the next 5 hrs cuz of some family thing thing at night. Which means i can't study for tmr's prelim at night :(

See lah huiping, who ask you play so much.
Urgh.

chenbin is so cute for once. LOL.

huiping says:
hey i need go and study alr, you want to msg me? : (

chen bin the great says:
*okies lo
*u feel tired then u sms me
*i be your kit kat
*take a break, have a kit kat

OH MAN SO CUTE RIGHT HAHAHA.

I'm feeling melancholic tdyyyy.
Nightmare :(

“ You can be in a room with 100 men, and not like any of them, or you can be in a room with just one man, and he’s exactly the one you want. - My Girl


Lol. i totally owned samuel upside down.
Yesterday he was telling me he can win me in plock. Then i ask him to try.
LOL.

Sam. -Your eyes are the brightest of all colors. says:
*ya
*play the whole day
*still cannot win
*STUPID ANOT
*lol

huiping says:
ya, damn stupid.

TOTALLY (Y)



Oh man.
I want to re-construct my room after Os : (
Like the one above!
I know yumi is going to say its so pinky winky huiping-kind (!!!!!!)
But awwwwww, it looks really comfy and sweet doesn't it!

Okay..
Need to get my hands on papers and pen soon.
Plock in fb is seriously fun can.
I love games that don't need to use brain and just click heeheehee.

Anyway veronica if you're reading this go study and stop slacking!!!
If not junyang is going to haunt me man : (

Maybe you're right, i should stop screwing up my own life w my rubbish choices.
Get back to track huiping :(

Its glad to know that you read this dumb space of mine every chance you got[:


When our friends don't trust us, we complain that they don't.
When they trust us too much, we warn them not to.
Aren't humans very ironic?

Okay i'm very tired now. I've to edit my grammar a few times for the above few lines & guess i'm going to make some really stupid mistakes later on.

History remedial in the morning.
Then caught "i love you, beth cooper"
When we wanted to tell the sales counter person which movie we wanted. Then it was like, " tickets for.... errr. I..love you.. beth cooper"
Its like, freaking weird lah haha, like telling the person i love you
anyway SG's NC16 rating is damn stupid. I don't see the differences between nc16 and PG ploxxx.

I'm contemplating whether to get lolita, but its 32bux ):
Thats like my.... 4 days allowance yawwww. For a book!?

Was so stunned when you told me we drifted, sigh.
Doesn't sound like something that you'll say.
Is it you, or is it me? ):
P.s. thanks for the assurance anw (:

My comp ALWAYS crash whenever i upload photos from my phone. Seriously uhhh...
Okay, these are the only photos that i can upload, heehee :d

I'm drainneddddddddddd.
Kay, toodles [:


[edit]
Totally got yq speechless in the morning.
We're supposed to meet at 12, then it was like 1150.
Me: heyy.. i might be a little late i'm still waiting for bus at my house ):
her: .(....) omg you noob!
-15mins later-
Me: eh, i reach already where are you
HAHAHA, omg lah imagin her expression : O!

hahaha kay so anyway, we went to ion orchard + wisma + far east.
Like finally after so long !!!!!!! :DDDDD
Kay so i was wearing heels. Like hi yeahhhhhhh [:
Was like a giant walking heeheeheee, people had to look up to me!! :D
Me eat alot tdy i feel so fat and sinfullllllllllll.

Okay, this is so crap. I shall go to sleep[;
Hope tmr will be a good day too :/

HAHAH OMG.
kay this week is some fertile week or what? Theres so many people's bday today and tmr.
Seeee :O [from fb ]

Okay, happy birthdayyyyy

I'm just trying very hard here not to crumble down.


I've serious insomnia man.
I slept at 1 and i'm awake at like 7, wth.

Idk why i'm feeling bitter ):
Is there any place in singapore where you can vent your anger or make you feel btr? ):

This is a really meaningful video, yup (:

Pastamania-ed w yumi that burned 13bux off my pocket for a meal ):
So not worth it rawr. I'm still feeling very bitter about it (!!!)

I need a few moments of euphoria for real. It has been so long since. I hate the feeling of despair and helplessness engulfing me day and night.

If only forgetting is so simple as pressing alt F4.

Supposed to be studying for POA.
But looks like i've slacked for 3 whole hours, okay whole day actually.


I miss the netball days

Especially when i'm dark like charcoal ( this is the only pic i can find w me damn tanned since my pictures folder decided to give up on me)

& those kuku actions on court ):

sigh, so my point is that.
I MISS NETBALL AND I HATE STUDYING ):

Kay, shall end off with this classic action of mine that i always do [:




Hello.

Today is a good day[:
Because i ate BK today w girlfriends and shopped! It has been gazillion years since i walked into topshop etc. Okay not that bad, maybe a month luh ): & oh man, i'm so going to town during the sept holidayyyyyys. I like page one much much heehee.

Oh yeah, today is mr chua's birthday :O
& he gave me a word of encouragement! it just felt really nice. Just thought that my fb status will be ignored and un-commented. And its really surprising heehee. But on the other hand, he forgot to key in my 30hrs of cip! ]: -feels rly bitter-

Uh, my eyes are really painful.
I think my cornea is having oxygen debt.



Why was i disappointed :/
Well, it doesn't matter anymore, does it?

I lied. Because i can't convince myself to ignore those negative thoughts that have been filling me all day.
I don't understand what you're trying to do at all.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ):

Finished two ss themes in a day, yayyy. Thumbs up (:
Seriously need a getaway.

[edit]

I seriously don't want to study anymore :'(
-huh.. go study abit luh

(whole chuck of things) & as usual i'll pick myself up again independently.
-huh.. cheer up. you got your friends.

Is asking you to motivate me to study and just say a few words of encouragement and consoling words too much to ask?

Breakdowns are good -pats my own shoulder-

Thanks so much uh, friend?

This is exactly the reason why i don't tell you why i'm angry and upset about.

Had a terrible horrible nightmare that i cried in my sleep.
I sprung awake & my poohpooh was gone
Then i saw the msg, and...

Forbidden love is such a nice song on the left side blue colour thingy.
Have been slacking too much recently ]:

Bad flu, gahdahblahxzxz.

Shall take a break todayyyy.
Away from all communications.
huiping will be fine tmr when you see her yayyy.

p.s. Thanks for being nice&sweet and stuff but things are better kept this way i guess.
Its pouring now mm.