Its the way you make me laugh when i don't even want to smile.

I'll have a melancholic feeling whenever it rains; is it just me or :/
Fine soon soon :) Hope my exam blues will go away soon.

I feel like i'm on a stationary point, dy/dt = Zero.
Screwed up my amath, yay once again. Its a freaking stark contrast from last yr's paper.
Could say i left the 9 marks binomial blank, if you exclude the fact that i scribbled some nonsensical stuff trying to make myself not so empty headed.

Had a nice dinner (:
& a not-so-happy talk that made me feel stony to start studying tdy.

& i'm pretty angry about history, urgh srsly.
I hope something not so in depth will come out if not i'm g'na kill myself srsly.
Can't afford to screw anymore papers ):

Urgh >=

Wake up girl, put on that smile of yours. One foot in front of the other, you can do this, laugh along. No one will ask, so you won’t have to tell. Hide your bruises, darling. You can make it. Just put one foot in front of the other.

Happy harrpy halloweeeeenz [:


In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take, the relationships we were afraid to have and the decisions we waited too long to make.

Huiping is damnzzz prrrrrrro.
I'm sick now, in the midst of exam, yayyyy.
Who cares :/

My eye is very painful, eye is.
Because only my left eye is very painful ):
Okay its so damn painful that im typing nonsense.

How i wish heaven can drop down an eye dropper ): okay rythme.
why isn't my bruuddder online, brother where are youuuuuuuuuuuuu ):

okay, im running virus scan now so its time lag
BB.

anyway, today's amath is hard till i feel like crying when i do.
So i was a little depressed so i ate chocolate ice cream & bought 5 bux and 10cents worth gummies. -grin-

okay, im tearing now.........cuz its really painful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ):
Look at what contact lens does to your eye! urgh.

I like "way back into love" piano version very much [:

I give up on my emath.
Screw it.

(From fuckyeahmath)

this is damn cool, LOL.

I just screwed my Emath P1 ):
Its emath for god sakeeeeeeeeeee, grrr.
Didn't someone said O lvl is the easiest examination?
Guess this year its an exception. Best luh, for the first time i didn't stone during exam. Didn't had time to stone i mean ):
Yesss, can you imagine?!!?

I had my favourite chicken chop for dinner, fortunately :)
If you see me one day on the street like some fat ass i'm prolly suffering from depression :/

Hiiiiiiiiiii babes.
Firsttt day of Os heheee.
Was slightly jittery when i start penning down the first few lines of my essay, it slowly turns to tired :/
After the last paper i was terribly drained out and hungry ):
But heh, i screwed but situational writing ):
So thats about it.

Everything is like fast forward-ed.
Still remember the first day i stepped into CT seeing all the new faces.
Its going to come to an end soon.

Okay, pretty annoyed w my mum.
Shes like screaming like nobody's business cause someone choked up the basin.
& its not me for god sake, i just happen to be the last one who use it ):
Assumptions, sigh.

I think those who are artistically inclined are generally very pretty, RIGHT VERONICA!
Why didn't my mum groom me in that area ):
Oh wait, I still rmb my kindergarden art teacher told me once that my drawing is nice.
Its deeply etched inside my heart okay!
No wonder my drawing is stuck at that age... hmm.

Okay, i shall go to sleep soon, no studyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

I'll keep this faith going.

“When we were little, life worked perfectly. No matter what happened, everything turned out alright in the end. Scraped knees, canceled play dates, dropped ice cream cones— we would cry for a short time, but by the end of the day, everything would be perfect. And now as we’ve grown older, we’ve lost the faith as we stumble through each day, crying over broken hearts, lost friendships, and lost dreams. It seems like life and perfection have turned their backs on us, but really its just that we’ve grown up. As children we didn’t pay attention to such details about our daily lives, but now we are more aware, and little details seem to be amplifying our pain. But just remember that when we were younger, life was hard too, but we had faith in perfection because we could look past faults. So don’t lose your faith. Learn to know that each day will pass, each heartache will be mended, and everything will be perfect in the end.
Just keep your faith.”

Today is a good dayyy [:
Everyone is so sweet heehee,

Veronica sent me a very sweet sms this morning that made me cry
Lubz you faithfullyyyyy :D

HOLIDAYS ARE HEREEEE, SCREAM AND SHOUT WOO.

Kay, not so much of that.
Os starting in 3 days' time ):
Mega booo.

Some aunties in singapore can really piss me off ttm.
Ytd when i was boarding a damn crowded bus.
As i stepped one of my foot on the step going up, this auntie stepped up after me and SQUEEZED her mighty body in.
So i was literally squashed, wth ttm.
Auntie big deal huh? Tsk, literally rolled my eye and stare at her.

& tdy again. Some auntie just "auntie ahh auntie" -squeeze fat body up-
Ugh-some.
I'm so glad i don't have to squeeze bus in the morning.


Its amazing how tumblr pictures can calm me down after a stupid day.
Sometimes negative thoughts ain't that negative after all woo.
I think what yumi wrote in her letter to me is v true :) It keep hanging in my head for the whole day since i read it lahhhhhh, stupid girl.

Sometimes we all want to know what went wrong, even when there isn’t really an answer to that question.

Not going to ask anymore; cuz the answer will come if it wants to.
Rechargedddd yayy, study time again ]:

I love the way you look at me. Especially when I say something really stupid. You have this, "Why do I put up with you?" look. But right after that is the "It's because I love you" look. Then the "I must be insane to love you" look. And finally the "I must be seriously insane" look.

Awww :)

4 more days to doomz doomz the boomz day.
My bill exploded and my brother is fairly angry i guess :/
Sigh, not like i want to make empty promises.
Guess after Os i've alot of debts to return too ]:

Kay, dinner time :]
food makes me happy yayy. & i had ramly burger today, double double happiness
And anw, VERONICA I SAW YOUR AH MA!
Quite epic.

Last night i dreamt that you were with me, finally i could breathe.

Lots of thoughts running through my mind like endless bullet train.
Just found a new secured place to pour all my shits in.
I seriously hope things will turn for a better.
Sleeping time.
If only i can borrow my brother's brains for 3 weeks. Hate studying

& i hate people who stop replying half way.

11 more days to O lvls.
I'm really starting to feel the pressure, tension, paranoiac.
Mr Goh had to ask me to watch out on my amath.
Don't ask me to jiayou for Os please.
Cuz everytime someone says that sentence i'll feel the urgh-ness :(

Going to school every morning, focus till 6.
Really drain us out ttm.
Hm wait, i think i said this before.
But sigh, 1 more week to bear.
3 more weeks of exams.
It'll all be over.
Wait, i hate the word over.
Os will not haunt us day and night anymore!!!! :D

"You know how every now and then, you have a moment where your whole life stretches out ahead of you like a forked road, and even as you choose one gritty path, you’ve got your eye on the other the whole time, certain that you’re making a mistake?

Why do i feel that theres something i got wrong in this whole situation
Sigh, i can't find appropriate sentence to phrase it.
Part of me want to confront you and ask you whats going through your mind, but another part of me tell me not to. & a tweeny part of me doesn't like things this way.
This is not the conclusion, at least not yet.

You made me smile, straight from the heart.

Woo my mummy just brought in strawberries for me :D
I like strawberries as strawberry but i hate strawberry flavoured things.
LOL.
Weird.

I just want the world to slow down. No, I want the world to stop. Right now. How can time just let things fall apart. Because for me, things fall apart, and they never know how to be put back together. Things will never be put back together. No matter how hard I try, I know I’m going to lose you. You’re one star in a sky of a thousand, but you’re the brightest one, and I know you’ll fade. You’ll fade until I can’t find you anymore. I can’t find you anymore.

Last two days have been black weekend for most of us?
Guess today is the hangover. Monday blues.

My head is very painful from all the shits, :(

“I was the fall back. The one who was always there. Wanted when the time was right, pushed away when something better came along. Do you have any idea how that makes me feel? Worthless, silly, stupid, horrible. You make me feel like I’m just not good enough when reality is, it’s you who isn’t at all good enough for me. You’ve made your bed, go lay in it. You’ve got your perfect little life now that I’m gone, now that you’ve decided that I’m just not good enough to be a part of it anymore. It’s fine. Just go. And don’t come back.”

Don't know if finding out all these are good or bad.
Fine, its my fault.
But, you didn't have to keep it from me, isn't it?


I'm so ultimately drained by school luh seriously.
Reaching home everyday at like 6pm on average? I spent sunrise to sunset in school, literally.

yesterday was shit luh( including the part when i'm in school during lunch break -scream!!- )
Reached home at 8pm.
Had 2 papers and calculus A & B to finish.
Wanted to wake up in the morning to study but i was so drained that i overslept.
For the first time in my 16yrs of living on this greeny Earth have i overslept without even realising i off-ed my alarm clock and exit yumi's msg.
ultimate.

Okay, i'm a little depressed now cuz i'm beeping tired and its only 8+
But heh, Jeffrey was being a little nice to lighten my day[: After humiliating and making me a fool during lunch break. Nearly wanted to throw him into the river to feed the turtles.

Conclusion of the week, hate staying so far from school.
I would really cab home after school next week mannn :(

Oh moo.
My brother is rly cute, she just..... i mean he just called me and asked whats my shirt size cuz he's at some sales.
TSK.
Typical auntie.
but yayyy i like (Y)

“ People say let go of the things that hurt you and keep around the things that make your day brighter. But what if the only thing that can brighten your day, is also the only thing that can really bring you down?

Don't know what both of you want.
Hp, out of so many, why :(

Okay, 18 more days to Os.
Changed my mind, i looked forward to Os ending now.
Many catching ups (L)(L)(L)

I think you seriously deserved this.
No matter what happens, you still won't change that isn't it.
Really, enough.
Its dead.

Didn't want to post this, but its bugging me like some...housefly.
Okay, maybe i'll even delete this before you see this dumb thing.
Yes, i'm angry now. Wasn't initially.

Hm so, since this is a small thing. SMALL THING, SMALL ACTIONS. So insignificant huh?
Then why do you expect me to be angry? I shouldn't be, shouldn't i?
Strictly speaking, we're nothing more than platonic, right?
You have your free will to do anything you like, and same goes for me.
Note, emphasis on the point: same goes for me.

Seriously, don't blame me for being unfeeling.
I'm not being sensitive here alright? I've been tolerant enough to not talk about it. & you kept dwelling on it till...
I hate it, hate. Hate it when you apologise on such things.
Sorry, you should NOT feel obliged to do anything.

I ought to have my own freedom of speech on this tiny tweeny blog space of mine.
Its your free will to read it or not to.
If only you can be more sensitive to the SMALL things you do


Some things, however, are true no matter how hard you might try to block them out, and a lie is always a lie, no matter how prettily told. Some doors, once they’re opened, can never be closed again, just as some trust, once it’s been lost, can never be won back.

I'm really bored now.
Becuz jeffrey took home my whole file that has all my revision stuff inside.
Best, LOL.

Hmm, so now what should i do now.
TUMBLRRRRRRRR :D
Good excuse, bring home my file more often!!!!


I've many good reasons to be angry w you today, but i chose not to.
Better not take this for granted.