When life starts to slow down, i start to see things at a different light.
Then i start to re evaluate things long term.
Or maybe its just talking to yumi.
Will it be long-term, or is it just short-term?
I want it strong. Maybe shall just leave it to the hands of fate. Everything happens for a reason, i guess.
Was talking to samuel just now. And i guess, misunderstanding is the root of all evil.
Maybe its just fate, ha.
( just like how its fated that i always update on alternate days. okay its pure coincidence)
Just like how it suddenly happens this year, like an alarm being set off within us.
I suddenly remember something that boils my blood.
I was texting at the bus stop. then there is this stupid uncle making his mad dash to board the bus. he just simply bumped into me and caused my phone to fly one metre.
THE MOST IMPORTANT AND MAIN POINT IS.
He didn't even apologise.
Such an uncouth uncle, tsk. I was too shocked to say anything.
& now there is a HUGE chip at the edge of my phone. sigh
And while i'm typing this, something just struck me, haha.
Tightening your grip won't make you secure, it will only hurt yourself.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Friday, November 27, 2009
Hello, today is 27 again. Some dates just get deeply etched in our hearts don't they?
Anyway i quit bakerzin after the first day of work. Should have heed jasper soh's advise not to work there, its really hellz. okay after that got another at clarke quay which i quit without even starting a day of work. thankyou so much to my parents being.... forget it. I'm still quite bitter about the clarke quay's one cause its really great and jeffrey seems to really like the job too. Its alright, sometimes we need to open our heart and accept things :(
O levels just ended two weeks ago but i feel so different from what i was two weeks ago. Realised many things that school failed to teach us. O levels seemed so far away, the two weeks were like two months.
Outing with random peeps was definitely fun. Jasper loh, shamaine and adeline. I lived up to my name and ate more than a human does, HAHA. Didn't know imm actually has a sky garden, nooobz.
Posted much much pictures on fb
Veronica's 16th madness &
Prom, grad day pix
Can't wait for sunday to come :)
Anyway i quit bakerzin after the first day of work. Should have heed jasper soh's advise not to work there, its really hellz. okay after that got another at clarke quay which i quit without even starting a day of work. thankyou so much to my parents being.... forget it. I'm still quite bitter about the clarke quay's one cause its really great and jeffrey seems to really like the job too. Its alright, sometimes we need to open our heart and accept things :(
O levels just ended two weeks ago but i feel so different from what i was two weeks ago. Realised many things that school failed to teach us. O levels seemed so far away, the two weeks were like two months.
Outing with random peeps was definitely fun. Jasper loh, shamaine and adeline. I lived up to my name and ate more than a human does, HAHA. Didn't know imm actually has a sky garden, nooobz.
Posted much much pictures on fb
Veronica's 16th madness &
Prom, grad day pix
Can't wait for sunday to come :)
Domineering.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I seriously hate people who doesn't take into other people's opinion and think that they're the best. recently my life has been filling with so much of these kind of people and i feel like screaming at them. But no, kept my cool. don't want to waste my breath because those people are mental heads who only listen to themselves.
In the society that requires team collaboration, we'll see how far you'll go next time. And as for my parents, forget it. They know nuts that when i keep quiet, it does not mean that i agree with them. Its just that i respect them for who they are and therefore i try not to quarrel with them. But looks like they're the one being spoilt.
In my family, there are only statements. No room for convincing, negotiations and opinions. Those are bull shit.
I'm so sorry but i just have to vent it out some where.
I hate it when my mother checks every single things i have at home, comment about every little single thing i do.
I hate it when she have to deprive me of all the fun that a teenager deserves, the process of growing up. Struggling to convince her, forcing her to allow me a little bit of freedom. i'm tired of it, what other viable options are there, tell me.
I hate it when she dominates me with the logic that i'm a little birdy that haven't grow up and don't know anything. Please. If i haven't have the brain to think whats right and wrong, do you think i'll still be sitting here, controlling and bearing all these nonsence. You seriously got to thank my friends around me who constantly teach me moral lessons and surviving skills.
If you think studying studying, staying at home is the best way to nurture a child, you know you're terribly wrong. A child needs to be told why are rules this way, instead of strictly enforcing it into them. It'll only rebound back, hard.
And my brother, another great one. 6 yrs of gap is really enough to pull us apart like strangers. Who'll never offer help to his dear sister. Do you know how hurting it was, how hard i cried. Still remember we used to play police and theif when we were young, hiding the game from mother because she will always scold us for making ourselve sweat like pigs. Then, that was the one and only time you helped me. Still remember the first time mother scold you, i defended you. although i was merely in primary school. Now what?
This is what i got.
And my dad, i never remember talking to him for more than ten minutes every day.
You know, i never want to write all these down. because i know i'll sound like a stupid kid complaining about a good family. But try to be me. When your parents makes no effort to understand you. When your brother is a second dad. Cry a litres of tears, no use.
At least i still cry, at least i still hate. It shows that i still love.
I'm afraid one day this home will really be an empty shell that i feel no attachment to.
If only you know how to loosen the string of the kite a little, it'll definitely be more beneficial.
If you can listen with your heart.
However, thanks jeffrey for being here.
If only he is part of my family.
In the society that requires team collaboration, we'll see how far you'll go next time. And as for my parents, forget it. They know nuts that when i keep quiet, it does not mean that i agree with them. Its just that i respect them for who they are and therefore i try not to quarrel with them. But looks like they're the one being spoilt.
In my family, there are only statements. No room for convincing, negotiations and opinions. Those are bull shit.
I'm so sorry but i just have to vent it out some where.
I hate it when my mother checks every single things i have at home, comment about every little single thing i do.
I hate it when she have to deprive me of all the fun that a teenager deserves, the process of growing up. Struggling to convince her, forcing her to allow me a little bit of freedom. i'm tired of it, what other viable options are there, tell me.
I hate it when she dominates me with the logic that i'm a little birdy that haven't grow up and don't know anything. Please. If i haven't have the brain to think whats right and wrong, do you think i'll still be sitting here, controlling and bearing all these nonsence. You seriously got to thank my friends around me who constantly teach me moral lessons and surviving skills.
If you think studying studying, staying at home is the best way to nurture a child, you know you're terribly wrong. A child needs to be told why are rules this way, instead of strictly enforcing it into them. It'll only rebound back, hard.
And my brother, another great one. 6 yrs of gap is really enough to pull us apart like strangers. Who'll never offer help to his dear sister. Do you know how hurting it was, how hard i cried. Still remember we used to play police and theif when we were young, hiding the game from mother because she will always scold us for making ourselve sweat like pigs. Then, that was the one and only time you helped me. Still remember the first time mother scold you, i defended you. although i was merely in primary school. Now what?
This is what i got.
And my dad, i never remember talking to him for more than ten minutes every day.
You know, i never want to write all these down. because i know i'll sound like a stupid kid complaining about a good family. But try to be me. When your parents makes no effort to understand you. When your brother is a second dad. Cry a litres of tears, no use.
At least i still cry, at least i still hate. It shows that i still love.
I'm afraid one day this home will really be an empty shell that i feel no attachment to.
If only you know how to loosen the string of the kite a little, it'll definitely be more beneficial.
If you can listen with your heart.
However, thanks jeffrey for being here.
If only he is part of my family.
Monday, November 23, 2009
when i thought last week was packed enough, this week is going to be worse.
Picnic at ecp ytd, got my face burnt. i gotta pokerrrrface ^^
So i went to work for the first time in my whole entire life today!
I'm shagged ttm luh. 7 hrs of standing, walking, waitressin AND NO FOOD. I broke my record for not eating :( I lost 3 pounds manxz.
I nearly wanted to cry cause it was so freaking tiring. And i had to memorize the whole damn bakerzin menu and their serving style. crap.
Was whinning to jeffrey like mad when he came to fetch me :(
Okay, so rushed home and went to veronica's house to suprise her ^^
Initially supposed to be all 5 of us, then in the end become adeline and i only ahem ahem.
Anyway i think veronica was rly happy :D
And we did rly stupid things at her house.
PEEEKTURES UP... when i'm free :) I've tons lah.
Veronica was trying very hard to ugly-fy and silly-fy me. But to no avail ^^
Class chalet tmr, then family stuff in the morning then chiong to work! ):
Life sucks.
If only i can slack for hours. Yes, if only.
Picnic at ecp ytd, got my face burnt. i gotta pokerrrrface ^^
So i went to work for the first time in my whole entire life today!
I'm shagged ttm luh. 7 hrs of standing, walking, waitressin AND NO FOOD. I broke my record for not eating :( I lost 3 pounds manxz.
I nearly wanted to cry cause it was so freaking tiring. And i had to memorize the whole damn bakerzin menu and their serving style. crap.
Was whinning to jeffrey like mad when he came to fetch me :(
Okay, so rushed home and went to veronica's house to suprise her ^^
Initially supposed to be all 5 of us, then in the end become adeline and i only ahem ahem.
Anyway i think veronica was rly happy :D
And we did rly stupid things at her house.
PEEEKTURES UP... when i'm free :) I've tons lah.
Veronica was trying very hard to ugly-fy and silly-fy me. But to no avail ^^
Class chalet tmr, then family stuff in the morning then chiong to work! ):
Life sucks.
If only i can slack for hours. Yes, if only.
After Os
Friday, November 20, 2009
I guess life after Os is even busy-er than before Os. have been out every single day and finally i can stay at home and take a break now ): phew.
i'm supposed to pack my room right now, after a week of nagging from my mother. but....... :D
Okay, got myself a job, kind of. Just that i'm unsure whether i should go for it.
mum was still saying that its hard to find a job in this economy crisis time.
got hired on the first interview. *wave ecstatically* its as easy as a simple abc.
Sigh, really hope things will stay the same as it is now.
Maybe i'll be ditching blogger soon. too lazy lezzzy (:
i'm supposed to pack my room right now, after a week of nagging from my mother. but....... :D
Okay, got myself a job, kind of. Just that i'm unsure whether i should go for it.
mum was still saying that its hard to find a job in this economy crisis time.
got hired on the first interview. *wave ecstatically* its as easy as a simple abc.
Sigh, really hope things will stay the same as it is now.
Maybe i'll be ditching blogger soon. too lazy lezzzy (:
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
haha he is my new eye candy! (L) ^^
It has been madness after the last day of paper.
Grad day and prom are crap, seriously.
why did i even pay 80bux for it
And the camera usb isn't working and my cpu doesn't have a card reader, greattttttt.
How am i going to transfer to peeektures.
The season is here again.
If you can understand me so well, you wouldn't.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Urgh
If only my mother would not be so domineering and controlling like how hitler is towards germany in the 1930s.
Its already after O levels and i'm like 16, not 6. Out for 8 hours = being out for the whole day. Going out for 3 days = everyday going out. & look, i'm not even asking you to pay for my prom and shopping expenses etc. Do you know how hard was it for me not? No duh. All you know is to ask me not to go cause its not materialistic and, BROTHER WASN'T LIKE THAT.
Please, you might as well give birth to another twin of my oh-so-purrrrfect-bruddder.
And whats with the style of suddenly asking for a family dinner and making me destroy all my plans every now and then? Having me to compromise and STILL getting scolded by you.
Seriously, go find another daughter that can suit what you want.
I-am-not-going-to-go.
The woman in my house is seriously driving me insane >: @
Phuck man
Now, go ahead with the next step.
Get aunties and uncles and daddy and brother to gang up and scold me lah.
You're best at it anyway?
Leaving me no chance to explain myself and only throw hurls at me.
Its only your luck that i didn't turn rebelious yknow.
Yes, this is the phucking kind of family i'm brought up in.
If only my mother would not be so domineering and controlling like how hitler is towards germany in the 1930s.
Its already after O levels and i'm like 16, not 6. Out for 8 hours = being out for the whole day. Going out for 3 days = everyday going out. & look, i'm not even asking you to pay for my prom and shopping expenses etc. Do you know how hard was it for me not? No duh. All you know is to ask me not to go cause its not materialistic and, BROTHER WASN'T LIKE THAT.
Please, you might as well give birth to another twin of my oh-so-purrrrfect-bruddder.
And whats with the style of suddenly asking for a family dinner and making me destroy all my plans every now and then? Having me to compromise and STILL getting scolded by you.
Seriously, go find another daughter that can suit what you want.
I-am-not-going-to-go.
The woman in my house is seriously driving me insane >: @
Phuck man
Now, go ahead with the next step.
Get aunties and uncles and daddy and brother to gang up and scold me lah.
You're best at it anyway?
Leaving me no chance to explain myself and only throw hurls at me.
Its only your luck that i didn't turn rebelious yknow.
Yes, this is the phucking kind of family i'm brought up in.
wooo, just came back from town.
my mum said i'm as if shopping for revenge, 3 days straight. & tmr going again!
)=)
I bought heels from charles and keith! (: ttm ttm!
Caught 2012, guess its not bad.
The president of usa in the show really looked like obama! just that he is such older mm :/
& i guess fate is really such an unexplanable thing.
my mum said i'm as if shopping for revenge, 3 days straight. & tmr going again!
)=)
I bought heels from charles and keith! (: ttm ttm!
Caught 2012, guess its not bad.
The president of usa in the show really looked like obama! just that he is such older mm :/
& i guess fate is really such an unexplanable thing.
Last day
Friday, November 13, 2009
Hellooooo.
So today was the last paper, which marks the end of secondary school life!
Its sad more than happy actually.
Like, suddenly lost the purpose of life.
No idea what to do right nowwww. mugging had been filling so much of my time luh.
Okay, so left the school after leaving a "legacy" with jeffrey. hahaha.
Shall go back few years later to see if it'll still be there (:
Alright, subway with girlfriends and talked for like 2 hrs?
Then head to townn, saw damn alot of people. Its almost like a ct gathering at far east.
And i bought something! (:
I'm almost broke nowwww ):
So today was the last paper, which marks the end of secondary school life!
Its sad more than happy actually.
Like, suddenly lost the purpose of life.
No idea what to do right nowwww. mugging had been filling so much of my time luh.
Okay, so left the school after leaving a "legacy" with jeffrey. hahaha.
Shall go back few years later to see if it'll still be there (:
Alright, subway with girlfriends and talked for like 2 hrs?
Then head to townn, saw damn alot of people. Its almost like a ct gathering at far east.
And i bought something! (:
I'm almost broke nowwww ):
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
A: walau i'm getting fat lah how ):
B: nowadays all the girls so skinny, so you need to be a little fatter in order to stand out. Look at ______, she stand with you all, so outstanding!
I ran for 5 minutes today! I feel so skinnyyyyyy heeheee
Okay i'm just deluding myself ):
B: nowadays all the girls so skinny, so you need to be a little fatter in order to stand out. Look at ______, she stand with you all, so outstanding!
I ran for 5 minutes today! I feel so skinnyyyyyy heeheee
Okay i'm just deluding myself ):
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Ohmygodddd.
I win big time man.
That time the coke spill on my bio tys and i threw it away.
Besttt. dont need study for bio mcq alr ):
I'm so boredddd.
That i painted my nails [: Then i realise i can't do anything else other than waiting for it to dry. So i had to resort to primitive means by planting seeds at fb to cure my bored-ness.
Oh my godness my hair flew my nails.
oh my godness i sat on my toe nails.
OH-MY-GODNESS. i just washed my hand cuz i forgot....
Okay, fail ttm -bang wall-
Anyway shopped with veronica after chinese paper.
Higher chinese was coool [: 'cept that my essay was a little weird :/
We were supposed to shop for an hr! but that stupid girl made me shop with her for the whole entire afternoon. And i had to cancel my date with my bed ):
& i spend 20bux on my nails.
& i ate two lunch :D
& my mum just scolded me for spending money like waterrr.
kay i shall get a jobbbbbbbbbbbbb ):
I win big time man.
That time the coke spill on my bio tys and i threw it away.
Besttt. dont need study for bio mcq alr ):
I'm so boredddd.
That i painted my nails [: Then i realise i can't do anything else other than waiting for it to dry. So i had to resort to primitive means by planting seeds at fb to cure my bored-ness.
Oh my godness my hair flew my nails.
oh my godness i sat on my toe nails.
OH-MY-GODNESS. i just washed my hand cuz i forgot....
Okay, fail ttm -bang wall-
Anyway shopped with veronica after chinese paper.
Higher chinese was coool [: 'cept that my essay was a little weird :/
We were supposed to shop for an hr! but that stupid girl made me shop with her for the whole entire afternoon. And i had to cancel my date with my bed ):
& i spend 20bux on my nails.
& i ate two lunch :D
& my mum just scolded me for spending money like waterrr.
kay i shall get a jobbbbbbbbbbbbb ):
Sunday, November 08, 2009
I seriously hope my mother will stop pms-ing and spoil my daysssssss.
Urgh.
Stunned at tumblr blogsecret 12497 ; maybe its my brain's twin sister that post that.
12. MR. RIGHT
Advantages
a. He’s handsome and intelligent.
b. He is intellectual, brilliant, and capable of taking you there mentally and emotionally
c. He will love you even when you are not lovable
d. He says all the right things at all the right times.
e. He acknowledges his faults and strives to be a better man
f. He understands a relationship is built on a 200% quota - 100% him and 100% you
g. He’s the kind of man who appreciates you, even for the little things.
h. He is a true best friend and everything you ever wanted in a man
i. He’ll buy you flowers and sentimental cards, just because.
j. He can dress - knows the difference between formal, semi-formal, professional, business casual, casual
h. He loves his mother
Disadvantages
a. Only found in old school Disney movies.
Hmm, ouch.
Alright. Every one is discussing about plans after O levels.
Sometimes i wish time could stop on the day after Os. And we can play the whole damn day and not care about anything else.
I want and need to be occupied after Os, but i hate the idea of having to work.
I hate the idea of not seeing every single one of you anymore.
I hate the fact that we all have to move on to the next phase of life.
I hate the thought that next time when we see each other on the streets we wouldn't have reason to say hello and catch up a bit just like how i saw my primary school friends.
Blame me for being melancholic by nature. Reminiscences.
Can't help remembering how we used to do ball drills time after time, under the sun, under the rain. till our feet, shoulder feel like breaking.
The gossips during boring lessons.
Secondary school is like the golden period of life and i seriously can't understand why some people can't wait to graduate.
When i look ahead, i see nothing.
Sometimes i wonder how is it like to migrate from one country to another like yiqing and zhilu.
Okay, end of rant :/
Sigh, slightly. Abit more than slightly maybe.
Urgh.
Stunned at tumblr blogsecret 12497 ; maybe its my brain's twin sister that post that.
12. MR. RIGHT
Advantages
a. He’s handsome and intelligent.
b. He is intellectual, brilliant, and capable of taking you there mentally and emotionally
c. He will love you even when you are not lovable
d. He says all the right things at all the right times.
e. He acknowledges his faults and strives to be a better man
f. He understands a relationship is built on a 200% quota - 100% him and 100% you
g. He’s the kind of man who appreciates you, even for the little things.
h. He is a true best friend and everything you ever wanted in a man
i. He’ll buy you flowers and sentimental cards, just because.
j. He can dress - knows the difference between formal, semi-formal, professional, business casual, casual
h. He loves his mother
Disadvantages
a. Only found in old school Disney movies.
Hmm, ouch.
Alright. Every one is discussing about plans after O levels.
Sometimes i wish time could stop on the day after Os. And we can play the whole damn day and not care about anything else.
I want and need to be occupied after Os, but i hate the idea of having to work.
I hate the idea of not seeing every single one of you anymore.
I hate the fact that we all have to move on to the next phase of life.
I hate the thought that next time when we see each other on the streets we wouldn't have reason to say hello and catch up a bit just like how i saw my primary school friends.
Blame me for being melancholic by nature. Reminiscences.
Can't help remembering how we used to do ball drills time after time, under the sun, under the rain. till our feet, shoulder feel like breaking.
The gossips during boring lessons.
Secondary school is like the golden period of life and i seriously can't understand why some people can't wait to graduate.
When i look ahead, i see nothing.
Sometimes i wonder how is it like to migrate from one country to another like yiqing and zhilu.
Okay, end of rant :/
Sigh, slightly. Abit more than slightly maybe.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
Ahyaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
I slacked two solid days & didn't touch on my chinese at all, kudos! (: (: (:
Just came back from town and my legs are damn sour.
We walked from wisma to far east to ion to orchard central to cine to vivo. & wait no, i mean cine train to vivo. ahahha. So basically we walked all over orchard and saw many people, mmm :/
Quarrelled w my mum over lala stuffs, urgh. Just count the times i ever talk back at her man, the ratio is like almost 1: 5 when she gets really unreasonable and out of wayy. Sigh, okay nvm.
Howeverrrr, i bought my prom dress! Its silver blingz blingz. I hope nobody will clash dress with me or else i'll knock that person out and lock her in the toilet. heeheehee ^^
I just read this tumblr and its really inspiring, sort of. Just that she is highly straight forward.
Oh man, don't mind me if i sound different.
I think easy fortune happy life is a good drama ma ma showww (:
I slacked two solid days & didn't touch on my chinese at all, kudos! (: (: (:
Just came back from town and my legs are damn sour.
We walked from wisma to far east to ion to orchard central to cine to vivo. & wait no, i mean cine train to vivo. ahahha. So basically we walked all over orchard and saw many people, mmm :/
Quarrelled w my mum over lala stuffs, urgh. Just count the times i ever talk back at her man, the ratio is like almost 1: 5 when she gets really unreasonable and out of wayy. Sigh, okay nvm.
Howeverrrr, i bought my prom dress! Its silver blingz blingz. I hope nobody will clash dress with me or else i'll knock that person out and lock her in the toilet. heeheehee ^^
I just read this tumblr and its really inspiring, sort of. Just that she is highly straight forward.
Oh man, don't mind me if i sound different.
I think easy fortune happy life is a good drama ma ma showww (:
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
I'm entertainment deprived ):
So, facebook, tumblr and blogger dashboard are the only sites that i can view. Sheez this v v much.
& zomg, saw this blonde with her hair till her kneecap, shes damn chio!
I also want to have hair till my kneeeee, so cool!!!!!
Kay, i'm just kidding. So horrendous.
Apologizing ;
It doesn't mean that you're in the wrong and the other person is right.
It just means that you value your relationship more than your ego.
Sigh,
I'm really tired of studying for Os
&...
Tumblr time.
give up trying to convince myself to mug.
&, if you can stop making me feel so not worthwhile all the time.
So, facebook, tumblr and blogger dashboard are the only sites that i can view. Sheez this v v much.
& zomg, saw this blonde with her hair till her kneecap, shes damn chio!
I also want to have hair till my kneeeee, so cool!!!!!
Kay, i'm just kidding. So horrendous.
Apologizing ;
It doesn't mean that you're in the wrong and the other person is right.
It just means that you value your relationship more than your ego.
Sigh,
I'm really tired of studying for Os
&...
Tumblr time.
give up trying to convince myself to mug.
&, if you can stop making me feel so not worthwhile all the time.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
My computer nearly crashed in the afternoon!!!!!!!!!!I mean it really spoil luh, but iuno why it miraculously revived. so yayyy, im here ^^
My brother is damn cool can! So after my comp crashed, so i went offline. Like duhhh.
Then my brother sms-ed me ( cuz he was in school using his lappy online i guess) how to revive my comp.
heehee i telepathy-ed him!!! Was so surprised.
so everything is fine now yayyyy ^^
But still, can't wait to get my hands on a lappy.
Was really bored so i went to nuffnang, then.....
Theres someone who searched "yumi@lublub.com "& came to my blog
MUST BE YUMI'S STALKER, EEEW.
Okay, some genius tell me how to study for my Poa and Bio please ):
My cousin is thumbs up man, srsly.
Me: ehhh, do you have a camera?
Cousin: ya have, but mine abit big leh
Me: OMG, dont tell me you got dslr. yours is the 1k or 2k kind?!
Cousin: haha ya the lens 1.2k.
Totally ownxz.
